i dont lurve fries at the moment.

i think i need a vacation, but not sure where to.
but i personally dont think i deserve one because i have been doing nothing since the first day of yr 2009.
nothing as in something that would benefit me in a long term.

something happened at work on fri which STILL gives me a grin when i think bout it.
m still happily smilling at myself whenever i think of a colleague's face expression when i offered him fries and he agreed by nodding his head while biting his lips. he didnt verbally said yes. i purposely asked again "what?! u want fries?". then only he said "yes, u dont like fries is it?". when i said i do like, he rejected my fries.

i still think that face expression is cute.

i think i had feet cramp at work. then a colleague was making fun of me when i told him there are ghosts in this office and this resulting me of having my first ever cramp. he advised me to offer my fries to the ghost sitting on my feet. unsensible but funny la. last week was the first week he entertained me after having work there for 2 mths.

by the way, mcdelivery fries taste awful. overcook. first time i eat fries till i wanna vomit.

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one of my 2009 resolutions came true - i tried corona extra. ;)
yeah i have silly resolutions.

cant wait for the raining season to come.. june is all i m waiting for.

.....

oohhhhhhhh m tired all because i slept at 445am on tues and went to work at 8am-ish. ystday and today after work i dropped dead on d bed b4 having dinner.

i walked from d scanner to d com for about 100 times back n forth to scan at least 100 pages on tues in d office. the whole department was in the meeting and i had nth to do after lunch. therefore to proof to d manager if she ever asked me what i did d whole day, at least u could tell her i scanned some stuffs. i told her my legs were hurting after she came back and she said i could use one of d colleagues com near the scanner. i wanted to but u know, gotta ask permission right. but the fella didnt come back in between d meeting.

i still have outstanding tasks to do b4 i leave this co in a mth time. 2 research in my pocket to complete and i seriously dunno how to get d info. i know internet, but these 2 are really time consuming. i took 3 hours to find an info today but no avail la. and my task to scan all the documents are still not done yet. wait till manager goes on biz trip and i could borrow a laptop from IT and scan it in her room. hahaha. i could consider myself a temporary manager. self-declared kononnnya.

whenever m frustrated, i think bout cedar.
i miss cedarpoint.
i really do.
so envy of sooheng right now.
are u reading this? haha.

knock em out in 5 weeks time.

i get very tired to find recycle papers around d office and being questioned why arent any recycle papers in the recycle tray?
i get very tired to answer why on earth the plant in d meeting room is dying. simple. its as hot as malls' parking bays when d room is unused and can plants grow green in that environment?
i get tired with selfish ppl. when i m on MC, why cant u complete my outstanding job when d manager told u to do so for me?

i have learnt to keep my mouth shut without asking more questions if you arent a good listener. you never gave me a chance to explain or ask further questions. all u said is "amanda, u dun understand!". how on earth u say that when i m talking half way. you dont bother to digest my words in ur pinky brains. i m better off asking other ppl than you telling me in 10 sentences when it can be simplified in just a sentence.

you said to me that my work isnt up to this dept standard. its alrite to me coz sometimes i find your words r very ridiculous to be followed blindly. i will just intepreted it as 'amanda is studborn'. i aint a type of person who simply become your dog without thinking further whether to proceed with ur words turned into my action. sometimes ur words really make me a fool. and when manager ask u why did u ask me to do it, you tried to protect urself by saying i did wrongly. amazing colleague yah.

m just wondering why GM and managers are nice but colleagues arent nice??
all along i tot its d opposite way around.
maybe this co's culture is different.
i love the GM who really appreciate petty things that i do for him. all i do is photostate stuffs for him and book air tic. i never get that kinda gratitude in a sincere manner from colleagues who constantly tell me to do things for them everyday. yes everyday.
the manager thats in charge of me is amazing too.
managers who arent my superior also nice when they asked me for lil help.
but but the colleagues under d same manager that i m in.... pelbagai ragam la.



estoy enojada! estoy cansada!

knock em out in 7 weeks time.

after a frustrating day at work, i need peace. hugs. kisses. laughter. smiles.

but nothing seems right. m really starting to dislike working in this co. not even mrhappy makes me cheerful today. well i know why coz i didnt see him today.

sometimes u just gotta bow at what ppl tell u to do although their words are seriously so.damn.wrong. if i have a junior, i wont treat them d way i m treated now.

arggggh! there was a colleague who told me to phone a person which i have phoned less than 2 mins b4 she told me to phone again. she wanted me to tell X to fax a doc on the spot. hello heaven sake, X is gonna fax a doc and why in the fucking world u would wanna remind X again. mr X said hes gonna fax in 3 mins, i repeated to her what he has told me, while i was on the phone. and guess what a bitch she is! she told me to tell him to fax in 2 mins. hello does a min makes any different?? i pretended didnt hear her and hung the call. i dont wanna make myself an idiot to outsiders. by the way, she isnt as efficient as u think. and what makes me so pissed off is that the 1st min, she could say do A, the next min she would say "why do A, u supposed to do B". what in the world have u said to me earlier?? and she was the fucking one following a customer complaint case, and how u fucking ask me about it? r u retarted or still in lullaby? m just 1mth old in this co.

many uncles and aunties adviced me "when u r working especially in ur first job, u gotta b patient, doesnt matter that u r treated like a slave". i dare to admit that i have turned into a very patient girl. but its thinning now because colleagues are climbing over my head. there is limit in everything. if one day i m very angry like a hungry wolf, i could foresee that there will be an 'explosion' going on.

m really praying hard that my manager would ask me out for a meal and she would raise a question like "so frankly speaking, tell me what do u think working here". m really gonna tell her the damn truth. i dont give a damn, man. its for everyone own good. yes being honest can hurt one's feeling.

again....

i was told "i have high expectations on u coz u r a graduate".
she even said that to other department when they were asking how did i perform.
then i was given a huge huge ass research to do.
she said "i need u to find ... although i know the answer, i dont wanna spoon feed u like i did to other ppl", but the research is time consuming. i ll give u time".

i like the way she put her words. shes not forcing u to complete it asap. shes also very concern about my working life in this co. she asked a couple of times "how do u find working here?"

mi manager caught mi twice wearing mi flipflop around d office. no i didnt forget to get out from d house with mi working shoes, but i gotta walk back n forth for every single piece of paper to scan. back. and. forth. from. scanner. to. computer. distance. at. least. from. mi. room. to. the. bathroom. in. the. house. scanning 2 fat files = at least 6 inches of papers to scan. i phoned the IT dept last week and requested for a scanner, but there isnt any extra. i asked all 3 IT fellas. i was angry coz the result wasnt on my side.

but today manager was superb nice (well shes already a nice lady) to let mi place her scanner beside mi. mi. love. it. i have a week to scan.

it ended my day with a smile. i was fcuking very frustrated and angry in d morning because of some amendments i had to make, made me walked back and forth when a colleague phoned me "pls come here" many many times. i dont know whats her problem but her job is to approve my sales orders. meaning she gotta check my work. but she keep saying "u cant afford to make ANY mistakes now, its not my job to check every single things in d orders". i mumbled to myself "whats the use u need to approve my work without checking it". i really dislike ppl always contradicting their OWN WORDS.


i m really pressured when managers want some works to be done asap. like "get this done in 5 minutes time b4 my meeting!!!". you know m such a kelam-kabut girl. last minute works dont work on me.

currently m so addicted to CHACHA SLIDE song and dance. imagine a group of soldiers doing d chachaslide!! it ll b freaking cuteeeeeee.

die on wed.

i think m gonna be dead meat when my manager is back from biz trip. shes gonna question me left. right. have u called this. that. have u done this. that. why did u forget this. that.

firstly i totally forgotten to tell a colleague to amend something when morning arrives. manager called that colleague at 3pm and i was called in and questioned "u supposed to tell me something, manager called just now". i saw like shitting in my own pants answering her question while my gastric attacked.

secondly i havent prepared an assignment presentation given to me. i'm still thinking how m i surviving with powerpoint, just one slide but i'm procastinating. i gotta come up with an example for 1-10-100 rule. gonna do it t.o.m.o.r.r.o.w. definitely. must. since i have already finished up 2 assignments and left it on manager's table for her to review when shes back.

the sickening part is to email customers when i dont really know what to say in the email. some customers are bloody demanding. they think order today and could get the thingy on the ship 2 weeks from order date? pui la.

the worse thing is, some ppl expect me to remember every single thing. u questioned me "do u remember .. tada. tada.?". i answered ".. i cant remember, gotta check it. wait!". then i kena sounded "u must rememberrrrrrrrrr!". and when i questioned u "do u remember thisthatthisthat!?". you answered "i cant remember, u need to brief me on this". what the hell. you think i'm computer processor unit?.

being a -----------------

g.r.a.d.u.a.t.e. isnt easy.

"you are a graduate and she isnt. i expect u to perform better although both of u r paid equally. doesnt mean u r working here temporary, u cant perform well. i can recommend u to work in other department after that period if u work well. if my ppl keep pushing you tasks, tell me. my ppl are smarter than other managers' ppl. you know what i mean?"


i take it as an advice. i gotta bow and nod to everybody and everysingle words they said. because i'm simply a newbie to this rat race environment.

peeps especially your manager expect u to perform above their expectations.

effective.
efficient.
initiative.
gotta give extra oomphs.


i'm a(an)::
admin girl
secretary
filling girl
gardener on fri n mon
police - fine ppl whose place arent clean
wiki-reference.
researcher
despatch girl
printing girl
photostate girl
sales coordinator
update manager on the orders status
reply emails although you dont know whats going on


i gotta do research and come up with microsoft office form on::
hotels, restaurant, country code idd, airline flights.

i kept on grumbling to myself, studying has only one responsibility. but at work, i gotta multitask and remember what kinda purchase orders have i processed.

i still dislike the habit of getting work done halfway, and another person gives u another task and the ball keeps on rolling like this. the only moment i can get things done is during lunch.

i was indeed frustrated today because i sent the wrong date to a customer. how could i remember what date belongs to what order when i have done many orders and other tasks? i was caught by a colleague, i didnt hand in a document she told me to. therefore i went a floor above to hand in a doc n at the same time i could breathe d non-frustrating-air. and. i. saw. him. my babi will surely tell me to stop bitching if she ever read this coz she said i'm too greedy.