wasted my money on the dumb cab driver.

i have never met a studborn cab driver. he is just pure studborn, a person that deserves to shut his mouth.

i flagged down a cab and told him where i wanna go. he said he knows the place. he used a different way and i voiced out. "u wanna use sec16 way? its jam!", said the dumb cab driver.

"no jam at this hour", i defend myself.

"who said so? i can bet with u. if i lie to you and cheat you, i can guarantee that i am fat", said the dumb cab driver.

"i always use that road at this hour, and no jam", am starting to feel pissed off.

"certain days only jam, wednesday, thrusday and friday jam. this way no jam and it is faster", said the dumb cab driver.

"faster means expensive", i said with anger.

"nowadays, ppl dont care whether it is expensive, ppl want fast", said the dumb cab driver.

"my usual taxi fare is only rm6.50", i said.

what bloody mary nonsense he is talking. fuck him. saying i dont use the road on wed, thrus and fri? fuck fuck him. am going to curse him. i controlled myself by throwing my face out of the window. he used the pantai toll joint to kerinchi. meaning he used the federal highway. fuck him. this driver is so cacat. he is so bloody johnny walker confident that he knows the way.


finally my cab fare today is rm9.20. fuck him.

when i told him to stop at the bus stop, he said with a guilty voice tone, "this is paramount".

"i told you to use the other way, you dont want", i still feel pissed off.


hope he meets an accident, and loss his income a month. a month is too little. for few months. or he needs to walk handicapped-ly. ego and confident cab driver i met today. fuck fuck fuck him la. today i bought subway's cheese veggie and wanting to go home early after that. his pathetic cab driver spoiled my mood. now that i have finished eating my cheese veggie, am still feeling pissed off.

5 hours doing nth.

aint i a good friend accompanied a fren for 5 hours in a hair saloon - peek-a-boo, TTDI? even the haistylist praised me in cantonese "wah, your friend is really good , accompany you here!". all i did was drank 2 cups of green tea, read magazines and walked around d night market alone!!















i kept staring at page N11 in today's paper. leehom is coming on d 9Nov for promo. Am not so silly to attend while pushing with his fans. waste my time. i rather watch the Finals of Project Runway Malaysia. however, staring at his face in d newspaper gives me some satisfactions. :)


its fresh in my mind what happened when he received a basket with teddybear in it. the audiences went "awwwwwwwwwwwww!"


november is a busy month-
:: jo is coming back, gotta listen her 4 months of experience in states.
:: i will b waiting for waiyee for dimsum.
:: pick sugarpie cousin from airport, i dunno how and when.
:: mugging, slacking is what i am now.
:: not forgetting my concert, make sure am still alive by that day.

gone for good?

i threw my bedsheet into the washing machine to avoid being told so many times. then quickly i washed my clothes. ate my yummy bihun.

as i ate my last fork of bihun

"amanda!!!! come here!!!" mom shouted from d kitchen.

"shit la. what else she wants!!??", as i whispered to myself walking to d kitchen from d living hall.

mom :: ur handphone is in d washing machine.

i quickly off d machine, took out my 4 yrs old flip phone. without any hesitation, i open it up, praying that my sim card is still functioning. insert it into bro's. and YES, it worked!! cleaned my phone, but i cant open the LCD part without a special small screwdriver! d water went into d LCD. i stared at it on the table, mumbling to myself. i tried numerous times to on d phone, but still unable to. after much staring at it, mom pitied me (i guess) and offered to sponsor me rm400. however am gonna take out some money so that i can buy a good camera and mp3 phone but it will take ages thanks to d concert tic. well, am NOT REGRETTING regarding with d tics. what more can i ask for, for good seats!

there are so many choices in d market now. i cant make up my mind after going to sonyericsson's n motorola's sites. being a technology dummy makes the situation worse. what is band :: tri-band, quad-band etc? what is inbuilt Motomixer?

i guess i wont be getting a phone till december as i will take time to gather infomations on phones' features. i am a fussy lady when choosing things. so contact my house la.

ada opportunity, grab it la:: LGT::

today's topic is :: migrate :: as i hopped into the car, on d way to coll.

mom :: *talking bout her colleague migrating*
mom :: do u want to migrate?
me :: of course. not australia coz its too common.
mom :: then where?
me :: some europe country or newzealand. can count sheeps there.
mom :: who wants u to be in europe.
me :: i want to work and stay in UK. but then my points still unable to qualify to work there. (yes, in order for msians-not-studying-in-UK to work in UK, we gotta follow d merit system).
mom :: do u know 20 yrs back, ur dad asked me whether i wanna migrate?
me :: gosh. why didnt u say yes. i will be a better person by now if u do!!!
mom :: newzealand sounds ok.


mom has a serious problem in not grabbing her golden opportunity. this is not d first time i shake my head to her. there was once, she told me bout her golden silver opportunity to feature in a magazine, sad to say that she rejected it! she told me more and more stories, to avoid being more disappointed, i told her jokingly "pls dont tell me anymore!"


if mom agreed and everything goes smoothly 20 yrs back, seriously i think i will be an extremently better person talking with accents. but i will lagi jadi a pure banana. dah la i am edi 90% banana!


i guess everything happens for a reason.

LimGohTong

a man that i truly admire besides Tun Dr. Mahathir. Am gonna buy LimGohTong's My Story biography book. I believe his book is better than LeeKuanYew's The Memoirs of Lee Kuan Yew: The Singapore Story. i am reading Lee's book half way for a week already. Half of the book talks bout politic which i am not interested in. I pick chapters on his childhood life, life as a student, life as a husband and topics on malaysia. Nobody wanna tell me d reason why singapore seperated from msia. I was kinda dumb not knowing his competitor in studies during school days is his wife,Choo. LeeKuanYew loves mathematics, was reluctant to learn mandarin despite going to a chinese school, thus he asked his parents to sent him to english school. I find these lil facts, interesting. Ooh yeah, he married Choo secretly in London and kept this from his parents. i-have-a-thing-for-biography-books.


the guy - 2nd from d right looks quite notorious but kinda good looking. The picture is clearer in the newspaper thou.

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dad ask again :: so, do u want the dog?
me :: i want, but mummy doesnt like it. does the dog shit in d house?
dad :: it doesnt even go out from the house.
me saying with a heavy heart :: then dont want la. it doesnt know how to cross the road. dont know how to see cars too. later, kena bang by car again. moreover the dog is small. cars cant see.

last day.

today marks d last day to be a big-eater. i am really having an issue with my weight. i have never talk bout this issue before, but not lately. i gotta learn how to eat less now. i tried not having 12 hours of meal few days ago. but there was a sign of gastric attacking.

possible reasons being a big-eater
:: see too many food-pictures.
:: despress.
:: too free.

izzit really not meant for me?

dad came home and ask me "uncle loh is gonna give away his cocker spaniel, shall we take it?, if not he will leave it in spca."

then suddenly i felt a 'piece-of-invisible-cold-wind" smash my face.

quickly i question myself "what if it happen again? and d doggie is brown in colour!" i have played with d dog during d entire dinner in uncle loh's house.

3 brown doggies of mine, firstly was brown dashuan puppy- dave - ran out and nowhere can be found. it was my very own dog. secondly, came a cocker spaniel puppy- ginger which my dad bought from his fren. my dad was confident that ginger will obediently sit by the ajar gate while he walked towards his car to take something. and there goes my ginger, ran out of d house and finally a bastard hit-and-run her. my golden retriever biggie dog - big boy was an extremently well-trained dog. he will not shit and urine in d compound. he would bark when he couldnt hold his bladders. he saw a bitch, and he ran from d house, hit by a car. the owner came down and apologized. i wasnt around when it happened. as far as i remembered, dad brought home big boy and i didnt wanna accept him although he is a hugable buddy. dad introduced me "big boy, this is amanda". he really said that but i didnt really bother to play with him after d introduction. it took me a week to finally accept him and touch him. my neighbour even bought a female golden retriever to make-mate with my doggie. when they approached us, it happen after his death.

my mum isnt a dog lover, she gives heavy sighs when she sees a dog in d compound. but as months went by, she was comfortable having d dogs, and could take a branch and play with their furs. i would like silently hide in a corner to see it.


we know that its jinx to have dogs in this family. but...... i need some living things to accompany me.

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while waiting for our dearest soyuz to b connected to d ISS from d live telecast in tv, i decided to throw some stuffs here.

i have been blogging too much in this month. look! my 6th post in 13 days!! i hardly read ppl's blogs as i used to do last time. well, i only read my frens' blogs. i havent been doing blog-hopping-on-famous-bloggers in msia nor any other places. the interest is deteriorating.

i should, must, hand wash my clothes tomorrow no matter what d weather is showing me. my dress for next week's wedding has been lying like no bussiness.

ppl have been noticing that i put on weight. sux. i dont know y i have d tendency to eat everyhour from a proper meal to milo to countless bananas and happily enjoying my chocolates which i dont really take before i have my teeth polished. thanks mr.dentist for polishing my teeth and you are making me eating sweet food. no, i dont want to have diabetes. i gotta control myself. 5 popiahs, each rm1 from d ramadan bazaar i ate 2 days ago. and amazing that i manage to have a proper dinner after that. ppl ask me why do i eat alot these days. i answered "depress"........

yes, finally Soyuz-TMA-10 astronauts have opened d ISS's hatch for Soyuz-TMA-11. now dr sheikh can float in d ISS after confining in d capsule for 2 days. every 6 months, a new soyuz will launch to ISS.

be proud. protect her.

fren sent me a link regarding an interview in bbc between msia's minister of foreign affairs n bbc's interviewer! the first question threw to d minister was tough. however he didnt really answer d questions as what d answers should be. in my opinion, those questions are really tough although it looked simple. he was finding d right words to avoid any issues arise. but the interviewer was a mean lady d way she present herself. she has done alot of research on what had happened in msia from someone wanting to change her religion from muslim to hindu to msia's development since independence.

i have been hearing and reading this quote

" outsiders cant insult my country, but not myself"

"i can only insult myself, but not u"


after watching d bbc's video, i was totally pissed on how bbc 'attacking' us. so i told someone to watch it. however he has watched it b4 coz he likes watching HardTalk in d wee hours. so we began exchanging opinions, and it got heated up and the conversation was getting out of d topic, and touched other issues. and when i said "msia is a muslim country...", his perspective changed. haha. i think not many non-south-east-asia-citizens know that fact and think that we are like sgpore - chinese country. so he apologized for being kinda harsh to me.

our country isnt like other muslim countries whereby we do loosen some rules n regulations. we allow western-entertainers to perform here but with certain rules n regulations like on costumes, no stripping, no shouting. i read from d newspaper saying that msia govt will give a green light to linkin park once for performing here without screaming n jumping. gwen stefani needed to change her concert costumes whereby she gotta cover from her shoulder to knees. she said she has put in alot of time just to plan what will d costumes like. beyonce couldnt take our not-so-strict-rules-n-regulations, and therefore that woman cancelled and didnt wanna perform here. stupid woman. dont want money from msia's audiences? neehow, i still like her song- listen.




i love malaysia. we are living in a peaceful country. u want to live in a havoc situation like iraq, still having wars when a 50th yrs old country have already sent her first malaysian cosmonaut to space???

protect ur malaysia when other citizens mouth bad her.

my 423 tic. and. lunch with sept 28 babes.

i bought a very expensive concert ticket. i couldnt believe it. you will not believe it neither. i promised myself that i would save money for my holidayz. no, i broke my promise before it hit the third month.

rm423

is all that makes my heart sink faster than titanic in 1921.

ah! i dare not tell anybody except for sugarpie cousin who are going with me, and whoever that read this. i lied to whoever that wanna know that it only cost rm200. korean singers' managements are making big ass huge profits. eg look at rain's most expensive tic - rm700+. SHE's most expensive 1st dec 2007 tic is only rm300+.

ah! heart felt painful. okok, let me look at the brighter side. my seat is 7th row from d stage. its EXACTLY in d middle. make sure d camera treats me nicely on that day.

hallelujah!

my bro asked izzit fahrenheit's concert? i wont go to their concert coz personally, some arent really good in singing. he asked, how much izzit? to make myself feel good, i said rm200. he jokingly said "tmw when u wake up, one of d ticket will b missing!"

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had lunch with two 28sept babes in jaya33's vietnam kitchen. towards d end of d lunch, we talked bout sripetaling and sriaman. was it me who brought up d question that shall we visit sripetaling after lunch? i cant remember. hehe. and deniece took my lil persuasion. it was a very nostalgia-feeling when i entered sripetaling. gates were locked around d corridor. we couldnt enter d classes to feel what izzit like being a lil kid again. showed yinmei the timbul-manhole-that-was-said-a-grave and d computer room n music room. somehow i felt eerie along d corridor between d library and staffroom. then we took a trip to sriaman, deniece said d guard is strict, so we didnt enter la. deniece then said "so wanna go to chimkindergarten?". that girl is teasing me!!

deniece & yinmei


haPPy 22nd biRtHday!!

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i gotta learn how to be fair to everybody. i felt difficult to keep something out from a person, but the other person knows it. i aint a secretive kinda person. but dont get mistaken, i can keep secrets. u can count on me babes! keeping something out from reaching some peeps because its for their own good i guess. u see, sometimes we lie coz we dont wanna hurt them. sometimes too we dont want the situation to get worse. i always think twice thrice whether to lie. when i reveal it after a very long time keeping it, all i get is "fuck u la". i dont blame them saying it out. coz i dont give a damn. ooh yeah, just had a conflict conversation in msn. damn shit. i dun give a damn. manda, be happy. it isnt worth thinking bout it!!! i am very much disliking talking to studborn ass ppl who has no respect for me. i know all of us have a d studborness in ourselves, but if u are talking to someone, u should eliminate certain degree of it. keep ur minds open, bastards! am just pure angry here.




i have given a task by dad to book some tics. i followed according to what he has wrote on d paper. when he found out that i blindly followed it, he scolded me. watonearth!!!??? he said i should like think b4 i book!! gosh, i aint a secretary who makes decisions. cousin told me b4 that when men reach 50's, their hormones change. i should label it as pms - post men sympthom. his characters are getting from bad to worse. ok, i know am doing a huge ass sin for saying it, but i just dont know who to tell it. i tried but what i get is "he says it coz he loves u". i dont believe that statement. when i complain this to my frens who arent staying with their parents now, all i get is "u r lucky coz they still nag u. now that i am in overseas, i miss their naggins". bullshit la. i dont get stress in studies, but i get it at home coz of bloody words they give me. if u are in my position, u will know it. if u have that kinda parents, u will know it. i dont feel appreciated for what i have done for them.

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i cant wait for next week to mark in my calendar. i believe that dbsk's tickets will b on sale in public and d floor seatings are important to me. i found quite a number of sites said pre-bookings can b made thru them. i have d urge to do it coz afraid that the seats that i want, no longer available. but on d other hand, i ask whether are they con-ners. i like love attending all this concerts-musical stuffs. i know i dont show that kinda interest in front of u coz its difficult to get someone like me who will spend their money and time on this. ooh yeah, today i had personal-concert ie i watched leehom's heroes of d earth dvd for nearly 3 hours alone, to get the concert-feeling back! sony-bmg should compile msia heroes of d earth concert into dvd. it was obviously nicer than taiwan's. jjlin on d piano is better than westlife on josh gorban's you raise me up. we have 'heart pillow' while he sung forever love, a basket of teddy bear while a song (cant recall) and a bouquet of flowers. look at taiwan's, they have one fake flower only. ok, enuff of all these.

fly away

"hey im leaving 4 uk dis weekend. sorry that i didnt tell earlier was really busy cos it was last min decision. neeway, take care n hope 2 c u wen im back"

i was totally sad after reading it. there wasnt a single news bout my fren for 2 mths, and finally this is d sms i got. sad sad sad. so i called and we talked abit..... another library buddy is no longer with me. now i have ZERO library buddy..

last week was unexpected. i got a call from my frens in uk and in ohio.

just for dbsk.

*personally i think, fourth from d left looks like disband f4's jerry yan*
*i have watched a few videos during their promotions, and noticed that junsu must stand on d left, followed by micky, hero, max and u-know*
*they have funny and extraordinary names that always wanna make me lauch*
*oohhhlala, i think u-know is hot, the one on d right la, hes 1986 kiddo*


my sugarpie cousin is coming from oz just to attend dbsk concert on nov 24 in kl! ok. to make it not exaggerating, shes planning to come maybe 2 weeks earlier as planned to attend d concert. initially i didnt bother although i know they are coming. but then i was too free to the point, i youtube-d them. d interest on them gradually getting stronger. their dances are energetic and synchronize - i knew it when i attended dbsk or tvsfq or gods rising from the east or tohoshinki or dbsg (this 5 koreans members specialise in cool dances has many names to their group) last year's 14th july (yes, i dug for d ticket just now to get d date.. hmm i believe its suhui's bday). on that day, i got a call to attend a concert. i asked whose's, was told, unfortunely i didnt know who they were. when i was there, i took a glance at the posters hung around d stadium. i recalled " this guys are so gay coz they highlighted their hair like lala guys". we bought 1 litre of mineral water, and not allowed to bring in. so i gulpped it, and they gulpped too. we rushed (didnt run alrite, wasnt so crazy) as we were kinda late. it was free seating in the highest tier, so we chose the highest seat in d highest tier. below us were empty, but the tier below we occupied by majority of korean students studying here. after youtubing dbsk, i found out that dbsk's management really invest a big sum of money just to make the stage looks good and also on dbsk's costumes. i didnt expect there is a stage extension from the main stage to the other end of d stadium, it was better than leehom's stage extension in taiwan.

neeway, sugarpie cousin is asking me to get rm300+ tixs!! omg. am gonna b broke. i know its cheap for her! i might b throwing my rm300+ just to b close to d stage. no, i am not crazy over them. its because i just want the concert-atmosphere and concert-feel. sitting far away from d stage will not make me satisfy and i will complain as long as its still ringing in my head, i have learnt it during leehom's....


am crossing my fingers to get free tixc!!! if someone ask u whether u want d tic but u cant attend it, gimme! i will spend u a meal!