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i gotta learn how to be fair to everybody. i felt difficult to keep something out from a person, but the other person knows it. i aint a secretive kinda person. but dont get mistaken, i can keep secrets. u can count on me babes! keeping something out from reaching some peeps because its for their own good i guess. u see, sometimes we lie coz we dont wanna hurt them. sometimes too we dont want the situation to get worse. i always think twice thrice whether to lie. when i reveal it after a very long time keeping it, all i get is "fuck u la". i dont blame them saying it out. coz i dont give a damn. ooh yeah, just had a conflict conversation in msn. damn shit. i dun give a damn. manda, be happy. it isnt worth thinking bout it!!! i am very much disliking talking to studborn ass ppl who has no respect for me. i know all of us have a d studborness in ourselves, but if u are talking to someone, u should eliminate certain degree of it. keep ur minds open, bastards! am just pure angry here.




i have given a task by dad to book some tics. i followed according to what he has wrote on d paper. when he found out that i blindly followed it, he scolded me. watonearth!!!??? he said i should like think b4 i book!! gosh, i aint a secretary who makes decisions. cousin told me b4 that when men reach 50's, their hormones change. i should label it as pms - post men sympthom. his characters are getting from bad to worse. ok, i know am doing a huge ass sin for saying it, but i just dont know who to tell it. i tried but what i get is "he says it coz he loves u". i dont believe that statement. when i complain this to my frens who arent staying with their parents now, all i get is "u r lucky coz they still nag u. now that i am in overseas, i miss their naggins". bullshit la. i dont get stress in studies, but i get it at home coz of bloody words they give me. if u are in my position, u will know it. if u have that kinda parents, u will know it. i dont feel appreciated for what i have done for them.

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i cant wait for next week to mark in my calendar. i believe that dbsk's tickets will b on sale in public and d floor seatings are important to me. i found quite a number of sites said pre-bookings can b made thru them. i have d urge to do it coz afraid that the seats that i want, no longer available. but on d other hand, i ask whether are they con-ners. i like love attending all this concerts-musical stuffs. i know i dont show that kinda interest in front of u coz its difficult to get someone like me who will spend their money and time on this. ooh yeah, today i had personal-concert ie i watched leehom's heroes of d earth dvd for nearly 3 hours alone, to get the concert-feeling back! sony-bmg should compile msia heroes of d earth concert into dvd. it was obviously nicer than taiwan's. jjlin on d piano is better than westlife on josh gorban's you raise me up. we have 'heart pillow' while he sung forever love, a basket of teddy bear while a song (cant recall) and a bouquet of flowers. look at taiwan's, they have one fake flower only. ok, enuff of all these.