knock em out in 7 weeks time.

after a frustrating day at work, i need peace. hugs. kisses. laughter. smiles.

but nothing seems right. m really starting to dislike working in this co. not even mrhappy makes me cheerful today. well i know why coz i didnt see him today.

sometimes u just gotta bow at what ppl tell u to do although their words are seriously so.damn.wrong. if i have a junior, i wont treat them d way i m treated now.

arggggh! there was a colleague who told me to phone a person which i have phoned less than 2 mins b4 she told me to phone again. she wanted me to tell X to fax a doc on the spot. hello heaven sake, X is gonna fax a doc and why in the fucking world u would wanna remind X again. mr X said hes gonna fax in 3 mins, i repeated to her what he has told me, while i was on the phone. and guess what a bitch she is! she told me to tell him to fax in 2 mins. hello does a min makes any different?? i pretended didnt hear her and hung the call. i dont wanna make myself an idiot to outsiders. by the way, she isnt as efficient as u think. and what makes me so pissed off is that the 1st min, she could say do A, the next min she would say "why do A, u supposed to do B". what in the world have u said to me earlier?? and she was the fucking one following a customer complaint case, and how u fucking ask me about it? r u retarted or still in lullaby? m just 1mth old in this co.

many uncles and aunties adviced me "when u r working especially in ur first job, u gotta b patient, doesnt matter that u r treated like a slave". i dare to admit that i have turned into a very patient girl. but its thinning now because colleagues are climbing over my head. there is limit in everything. if one day i m very angry like a hungry wolf, i could foresee that there will be an 'explosion' going on.

m really praying hard that my manager would ask me out for a meal and she would raise a question like "so frankly speaking, tell me what do u think working here". m really gonna tell her the damn truth. i dont give a damn, man. its for everyone own good. yes being honest can hurt one's feeling.

again....

i was told "i have high expectations on u coz u r a graduate".
she even said that to other department when they were asking how did i perform.
then i was given a huge huge ass research to do.
she said "i need u to find ... although i know the answer, i dont wanna spoon feed u like i did to other ppl", but the research is time consuming. i ll give u time".

i like the way she put her words. shes not forcing u to complete it asap. shes also very concern about my working life in this co. she asked a couple of times "how do u find working here?"

mi manager caught mi twice wearing mi flipflop around d office. no i didnt forget to get out from d house with mi working shoes, but i gotta walk back n forth for every single piece of paper to scan. back. and. forth. from. scanner. to. computer. distance. at. least. from. mi. room. to. the. bathroom. in. the. house. scanning 2 fat files = at least 6 inches of papers to scan. i phoned the IT dept last week and requested for a scanner, but there isnt any extra. i asked all 3 IT fellas. i was angry coz the result wasnt on my side.

but today manager was superb nice (well shes already a nice lady) to let mi place her scanner beside mi. mi. love. it. i have a week to scan.

it ended my day with a smile. i was fcuking very frustrated and angry in d morning because of some amendments i had to make, made me walked back and forth when a colleague phoned me "pls come here" many many times. i dont know whats her problem but her job is to approve my sales orders. meaning she gotta check my work. but she keep saying "u cant afford to make ANY mistakes now, its not my job to check every single things in d orders". i mumbled to myself "whats the use u need to approve my work without checking it". i really dislike ppl always contradicting their OWN WORDS.


i m really pressured when managers want some works to be done asap. like "get this done in 5 minutes time b4 my meeting!!!". you know m such a kelam-kabut girl. last minute works dont work on me.

currently m so addicted to CHACHA SLIDE song and dance. imagine a group of soldiers doing d chachaslide!! it ll b freaking cuteeeeeee.

die on wed.

i think m gonna be dead meat when my manager is back from biz trip. shes gonna question me left. right. have u called this. that. have u done this. that. why did u forget this. that.

firstly i totally forgotten to tell a colleague to amend something when morning arrives. manager called that colleague at 3pm and i was called in and questioned "u supposed to tell me something, manager called just now". i saw like shitting in my own pants answering her question while my gastric attacked.

secondly i havent prepared an assignment presentation given to me. i'm still thinking how m i surviving with powerpoint, just one slide but i'm procastinating. i gotta come up with an example for 1-10-100 rule. gonna do it t.o.m.o.r.r.o.w. definitely. must. since i have already finished up 2 assignments and left it on manager's table for her to review when shes back.

the sickening part is to email customers when i dont really know what to say in the email. some customers are bloody demanding. they think order today and could get the thingy on the ship 2 weeks from order date? pui la.

the worse thing is, some ppl expect me to remember every single thing. u questioned me "do u remember .. tada. tada.?". i answered ".. i cant remember, gotta check it. wait!". then i kena sounded "u must rememberrrrrrrrrr!". and when i questioned u "do u remember thisthatthisthat!?". you answered "i cant remember, u need to brief me on this". what the hell. you think i'm computer processor unit?.