gimme a break!

i think m doing nonsense at my work station especially d endless-filling - print clients' portfolios and throw (i mean recycle) the previous a4 paper.

everysingle day gotta file and i hate it so muchy.

m the environmental-friendly person and i feel very guilty and sad for printing the nonsense, why cant boss view clients' portfolios from her laptop? she once told me dont-use-recycle-paper-for-whateva-purpose. neeway, i really do think that boss needs another assistant to make it 3. maybe one day i should give a hint to the biggest boss in this dept since my boss said that no budget to hire another assistant. i think i gotta see the biggest boss every mth to get his approval on boss's claims.

-i hardly have the time to read the emails sent to me especially from the researcher team.
-i only drink like 900ml of water during working hours. as far as i know, colleague forgotten twice to drink her water from d gigantic water bottle, not until 5pm.
-sometimes when i pass by the pantry, i feel like hiding beside the steel-cabinet to watch CNN that always gotta on for approx 10 hrs but ... nobody watches it coz no time to do so.
-as i get to my work station minutes b4 the official working time, i hold a pen while using another hand to eat my breakfast.
-lunch time is like 1.5 hours but i only use 30mins and the remainder is to do my work.

today in our work station room at 10am,

colleague :: i wanna go to toilet.
me :: i also want to go, u go first.

and i totally forgotten to go when she was back, and i managed to go at 12pm-ish.
can u see we cant leave nobody in the room. some annoying clients need to be entertained when they phone. now m starting to worry whos gonna be back to work on 3rd day of CNY next yr!!!



listen up,
on tues, i think i gotta reach office at 730am coz colleague is on leave and i have many tasks to complete b4 boss comes in at whateva time. m gonna die on that day. lets pray that market is badddddd on tues and i can concentrate on my reports printing for the monthly end statement preparation. report printing gotta be done on the day itself and cant defer as figures will not b d same on the last day of d mth and first day of next mth. ;(

i havent really get to key in local stocks orders. from my pt of view, very pressurize to key in local stocks as m very afraid i could key in wrongly the buy/sell or price or quantity or even wrong clients and shit happens if i gotta repay the amount for my carelessness... and i m a very clumsy and careless person. fingers cross that this shit wont happen la. for foreign shares, at least i can relax a lil and nobody can blame me if clients cant get the price they wanted. ;)

and.... is this d job i wanted? hahahahaha

i need to get my life fix by reading d newspaper and listen to radio. i havent been reading newspaper consistently since july. and what more, gotta keep abreast with the current biz world. but trust me, biz page is way better than politics page.

maybe its time for me to daydream a lil about USA life like what Vi used to do so for 2 yrs...? but there is way-below-zero chances that i ll go there to work. if i would like to go there for holz, maybe after quitting this job, or after getting married to prince or retire poorly. i told myself that i wanna retire on 2nd week of work. last week, colleague told me that she wanna retired. sigh....

felt tired till i pampered myself by spending money on clothes for 2 weeks after work on the way back home. annoyingbitch bought clothes before her salary comes out!! *gives a pat on her back while rolling her eyes*

Congrats ViJeJe .
u gonna breathe the USA air soon eventhough its not for a long period....

lurve money, who doesnt!?

as i was checking client's portfolio,

me :: what??? is this amount right? earned rm28k?
colleague :: u see how long he kept the stock...
me :: around 1 mth only. i wanna marry him. quite young 30+ only...

beh tahan wei! i see ppl making money - rm28k P.R.O.F.I.T!!!!! in a blink of month and i only get salary without any side income!!!

i
need
capital
and
'tumpang'
ppl
to
buy
stocks
for
me
!

been hinting to dad that i wanna tumpang at his account. he told me "why hurrying! u study the market first!" hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmpppppppp

told bro to open an account, i will take care of it without him contributing anything. he didnt buy my words.... hmmmmmmmmmmmpppp

any solutions?



fyi, i cant have a stock opening account coz prohibited to do so by BursaM.
sad sad sad.

it comes to a point...

".... when you realize:

Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won't anymore...
And who always will.,,,

Don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

as i grow older, i dont really bother on certain things. there are many other things to do besides taking petty issues in life. my doc indirectly told me dont take into heart ALL the probs, it will make u angry! we need to move forward and be matured. i cant be bothered with immature ppl who play dramas with me, the drama is just for nursery kids.ooh maybe kids nowadays dont play dramaqueen game, they play nintendo and ps3wei! nevertheless, i have plenty things to catch up with my life......

on d seperate note,
arghhhh, end of d mth is coming. this means i have to do monthy account statement for 30+ clients which must be completed by 1stweek of next month.

i-dunno-how-to-do-syndrome
is around the corner.
struggling sydrome is coming!!!

neeway, i think i love my job!!
i think
i think.
ask me a mth later!

i

i gotta ::

1. change my postpaid line to prepaid. i was extremely shocked with my phone bill for this mth.
2. improve my health. sick from tues to sat. suspect to have h1n1. a few trainees tested positive for h1n1. well no surprise that we ll get it since we were in d same ballroom for 3 weeks.
3. proof to my demanding boss that i can sccore super high for my trading license in mths to come.


i have been thinking ::

1. how to survive with the working life for 30 yrs.
2. to sell things in pasar malam whereby i ll b only working for 3/4 days out of 7 days.
3. about my future. do i want to be keeping track with the financial market every single working day. it get tired u know.


i promise myself ::

no more job hopping anytime soon. very sien to start a new job in a new environment. i miss my previous jobs.


i still want holiday badly. hahahaha.

i entered borders and checked out 'Trading For Dummies'. Read a lil and the info was useful. Checked out the price tag at the bar code. What an eighty three ringgit i must fork out!?? :(

I ♥ 2009!

2009 isnt that bad as I have thought. I was afraid I wont be achieving anything this year. No proper job. No achievement. Life will be stagnant this year. But hey, things started to get better stage by stage without me noticing it.

I was happy in 2008.
I am happy in 2009.

After receiving my certificate of accomplishment of a training today, I felt so relieved.








21days in Palace of Golden Horses.
480 trainees.
asssigned to be in orange group with 46 others.
now that I have learnt some skills, m gonna instill it in me.
Thanks SimeDarby for giving me the opportunities.
1 month training ended, 11 mths to go.
BUT....
It sucks that I wont be joining SD.
SD staffs were really really nice.
One day I might be back in SD.
Let me chase after my dream first and equip myself with some knowledge.

Neeway,
Well...... life goes on.

New job this monday!
I never wanted to work in KL.
Never wanted to be part of KL human traffic.
Amanda, WELCOME TO KL WORKING LIFE.

No leave for the next 3 months. Since March till now, I only had a week break ie during my singaporetrip. Sigh sigh.

i dont wanna decide again.

ystday as i was taking a nap (not being able to do so for 4 mths), i received a call from Maybank. I felt very very highly stupid for rejecting the interview for the post of analyst this coming tues. Why didnt I ask Maybank to delay the interview to end of July which I will be having a week break after my 3weeks training ends. I called back the number on my hp, but no valid. damn. however I felt very lazy to go to KL from palace of golden horses (training is in that venue). And secondly, I dont wanna weigh the pros and cons between 2 job offers again. Its a very difficult decision. I actually took a day off on fri to attend 2nd interview in another company. It seems that I received a good response from the interviewers, and they asked me, will I accept the post since I am kinda employed now. I really wanna work in both company.

so the question is

conglomerate company
VS
investment banking company

ONCE am in investment banking co, theres no turning back. theres a very minimum chance to work in my dream industries - aviation and oil & gas co.

on the other side, in a conglomerate co, there are many benefits (but I will be getting it in a year time, if only the co wanna take me in, right now m just a trainee with other 499 ppl). anyway I am placed in oil&gas link division ;) hapi.

m going back to hotel tonight (cheh wah! felt so grand for staying in hotel for 3 weeks. haha.) wont be back till the last day there ie 25july. i stumbled upon a blog randomly and some new trainees will be joining us tmw (sunday). it seems that this company wants the exact exact exact amount of trainees ie 500.


:: sometimes I am trying to read God's message ::
:: such as I got a job already, but another job offer came by ::
:: what should I do ::
:: how to weigh if both are equally good ::
:: both have different career progression ::

finally, could stop hunting for a job at d moment.

i t.h.i.n.k. i have made up my mind to undergo a 12-month training in a company, superb long duration for me and this decision will disappoint few ppl in my previous co because m supposed to start my job next month, but offer letter hasnt arrived. too bad for them. my-soon-to-be salary guarantees me not to enjoy the luxury lifestyle. so dont expect me to give u a treat, m trying to b frank. what more to even do a plastic surgery on my nose, propose a guy with diamond ring and wedding photo shots in brunei and korea. sad sad but life goes on. i will have a very minimum days off for a year too. m gonna die of exhaustion man.

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i came across a korean american unestablished singer, david choi. his songs r nice.
http://www.myspace.com/davidchoimusic
he can also b found in youtube.
my fren said he looks stupid. ;@
u see, small eyes with sharp nose is nice, isnt it?
ok, his nose arent d sharp kind, but m saying in genaral, it is a good combination rite?
back to davidchoi -
he composed a song - FART!
it goes...
fart.. its a natural thing to do.
u know m talking to u.
u looking at my profile.
...........
interesting guy he is, isnt he?

http://www.youtube.com/pauldateh

another talented fella. i love the hiphopviolin piece!
i think this guy is better than leehom in violin.