l*o*v*e

Some peeps basically hold on to their relationship for the sake of being with each other for a long period, not coz they really like each other. Some peeps involve themselves in relationship for the sake of trying what is it like to have the other halves with you, the person who u can count on, the person who will accompany you when you are bored, the person that will sit with you at mcdees in the wee hours for hours. Some peeps know that their relationship will not go far, they arent the mr. right or mrs. right that will continue the journey with them after quater-life-crisis. I cant understand why you wanna be involved when you know that he/she isnt the one in the right place? is it for the sake of following the trend ie because everybody else are in the relationship? Its very annoying when some peeps desperately finding the other halves and kept on asking you whether he/she is a qualified candidate for you. i hate peeps going after other peeps for the sake of his/her and family's bank account. Will you get his/her family wealth in the future as you are just the family's in-law? Some peeps love the person for the sake of what-he/she-is, not for the sake of who-he/she and he/she can give security to her/his future.

Some peeps want to call it an off, but afraid to do so. why? coz they dont wanna hurt the other party's feeling although knowing that feelings for each other is declining. Some are afraid to go thru the mourning-session. Some said many bittersweet memories, ups, and downs they have gone thru and its such a waste if they break up. Some knows that their families disapprove them with other peeps from other religions.


i know its easy to say, but its difficult to do it. Its never easy to love someone (or izzit easy to love someone), but to forget someone you loved, its hard..But do you wanna continue the relationship knowing that he/she isnt the one to fill in the space in ur heart? i always say to my frens, there are more fishes in the sea. there are reasons why TheMighty make this happen coz He thinks he/she isnt the right want for you. I just hope that some peeps will have the guts and courage to call it off rather than delaying the down-hill relationship.

What is L.O.V.E?
security?
long lasting?
health?
wealth?
pain?
fear?
human nature and human bonding?
passion?
happiness?
confusion?
commitment?

so many definitions to this. which category are peeps in.....


(am talking bout love-between-man-n-women)


"love occurs during summer"
i didnt believe this, not until now.... there r some news bout my collegemates, who have proven to me that the statement does occur :P

let it be answered.

havent been doing anything beneficial since last week. have been waking up at 2pm or so, watched dvds - i have more than 10 to watch, i only watch during my 3 months summer holz, listening to songs over and over again and surfing some stuffs. my days will not be wasted like what i am doing, starting from next week. summer holz is coming to d end....... and i havent got the chance to have lunch. the plan is always written off at the 11th hour. now i understand working peeps have no time.

thinking bout it, i have tonnes of stuffs to do, but yet am too lazy to move my ass. prolly tomorrow, YES I PROMISE IT WILL BE TOMORROW, i have the feeling that tmw will b my d-day. my heart is beating faster as am typing that word. its the day that will determine my plans for next year, its the day that decides whether to proceed to the next level, its d day that ... etc..etc..etc... TheMightyAboveMe, i know i dont pray, but could u fulfill my desperate hope for once? whoever TheMighty is, i dont wanna disappoint myself. I have never put a huge effort in things that i do, but not in this. I have been sacficing my time for months, cancelling activities that am supposed to participate in. I am desperately needing a positive feedback. I vow to be a very good kid if i have what i hoped for. I vow to safe money. I will continue my piano. I will play leehom's songs gracefully. I will pratice my scales till its purfect as i have never be before. but cant promise that berklee music school will accept me :P

cinderella needs to take a broom.

it has been a week of hell
here is the story i wanna tell


i have been eatin well,
shit well,
sleep well,
but heck not walking well.

my legs are losing its muscles.
i need to cure with mussels.
am just fckin joking with mussels,
but i not joking bout not walking well for 3 days.

been consistently using my mouth to eat lot,
blooty stomach is showing up,
so i ate less,
gastric attack came back,
and kept on chewing d pineapples,
since no more kiwis left.

its time to 'groom' my room,
but reluctant to take a broom,
praying that a boom is planted in it,
explosion will occur,
and it will fasten my spring-cleaning.

ok. guess i will make my room sparkle like twinkle star now before rewarding myself with desperate housewives show.


"this world is problem-less. but we create problems."

still on holz ok.

i do get annoyed and dont like to repeat gazzilion times bout the same subject. sometimes i dont feel like telling what's-up-with-me to forgetful ppl. when ppl ask me whether is my semester on or am i on holiday, i do get, very irritated when i have told the same person that i am on holz till end of aug. i know peeps have lots of things to remember, but heck, is my-situation-ie-on-holz-till-end-of-aug is very difficult to remember? cant they put a lil fact bout myself in their brains that my holidays ,have been falling from june to august every year and the calendar has been like this for 5 years, and will only resume classes in the first week of sept??!! do they take note bout my current updates after asking me? i dont see a difference of them knowing whether am i on holidays now. its not like we are going to make cookies together or organizing a runway together during my holz. if there arent sick of always asking me, am sick of telling them. i dont see theres a point to tell acquaintances in depth bout me, just a surface will do. pardon me, am just feeling very irritated now. everything seems to be annoying. the weather is hot. neighbour kids are still shouting at this hour ie 1243am. my downloads are super slow. irritating peeps.

do not waste food

its really sad to see food outlets throw their excess food into the garbage plastic bag when its time to close!

i was at ikea's dunkin donuts. it was 11pm. a worker was throwing away donuts from 2 trays into the huge black plastic bag. so i walked to him and pretended to buy donuts even thought i know the fact that it has closed.

me :: encik, saya nak beli donut!
doesnt-wanna-layan :: dah tutup
me :: tapi, boleh bagi saya donut tu. nak buang ke?
doesnt-wanna-layan :: (he gave me 4 chocolate donuts)

cant they give it to the orphanage homes? its such a waste to throw it away when its still edible. they arent allowed to bring home, its the law. if there isnt such of that law, those fella will make lots lots lots of donuts and bring it home for their families. i heard that in mcdees, if the burgers are display for 10 minutes and nobody orders it, mcdees will throw it away. so, in order to waste food, mcdees will make the burger on the spot when peeps order it.

i am not a donut fan, but i could tell that the chocolate donuts are hard, its not nice. do not hesitate to ask for wateva food that are edible, when you know its gonna be thrown to the garbage.

sometimes you gotta search for it really hard

my trip to isetan's klcc is worth it today coz i bought the grey denim skirt i wanted badly (coz i dont have grey denim). i have gone to klplaza's, and it didnt have the size i wanted. then went to isetan's klcc, luck wasnt on my side coz the sales assistant said only one left (wth, i saw so many TODAY - sometimes they lie, damn them). gone to midvalley's, not a single sight of that design i wanted. so today i had the patient to wait for d rapidkl-not-rapid-at-all-bus for 30 minutes, having some glances by car drivers. i hate that feeling of ppl looking at me and am a frequent bus rider. sometimes i just wanna show them my lovely 3rd finger (alrite, i dont dare... u know ppl nowdays are crazy and they might come out with parangs). a lady walked towards the busstop and she asked me what bus am i taking. eventually she gave me her bus ticket, i saved rm1 :) many months ago, i found a bus tix outside college, so i took it and gave it to a guy who was holding rm1 while waiting for not-so-rapid-after-all-dummy-bus.

i have the habit of chucking my new stuffs (its still in the plastic bag for days), on the floor. i need to scrap that habit away. a few of my clothes are still with its price tags. well, santarina bought for me an expensive top (top which i reluctant to get it), a month ago, and its still in the plastic bag, in my wardrobe... am sorry for 'abandon' it.


* am wondering why leehom sung- track 10 from the new album@minute 2'50- out of tune so-not-him. he has been singing a handful of out-of-tune in his songs. firstly, in 'heroes of the earth concert in taiwan (dvd)' - ...jin GOT the solution to the polution.... secondly in 花田錯 song in d dvd, in the first quarter... ooh yeah, was in kinokuniya (i dont know how to say it last time :)) and i have searched high and low for his piano sheet book but couldnt find it. impossible there isnt of his pianosheetbook in msia.

the sweet escape

1st hunt for dental surgery clinic::
after 4 rounds of merry-go-round, i finally settled for a parking space. the recommended dentist wasnt on duty today. so i made an appointment tmw at 12pm.

i just wanna get over with dentist-must-see-my-teeth. so i decided to go to ss2. fren helped me out to hunt for dental surgery clinic above the shops as i drove d car. there are 4 dental surgery clinics in ss2 as far as i know.

2nd hunt ::
i stayed in the car while fren helped me out to find info. it was 1245pm, and he is closing his clinic for lunch. he says he does braces.

saw a parking lot, and its mine. felt excited to see dentist edi.

3rd hunt::
its closed.

4th hunt::
the assistant doesnt know english. crapness. with fren's help as a translator, the dentist is on lunch and will be back in an hour time. crapz. and the interior design in the clinic doesnt satisfy me.

i was hungry. "lets have lunch", i said.

"no, we cant have until you see a dentist", fren was being helpful.

5th hunt::
i cant remember this visit. i think its closed. my memory isnt good now. its rusty resulting from a very long summer break.

"i am not fated to have a visit to see dentist. not fated to have braces too. how many have we visited" i said.

so, we hopped into mcdees. i had carbonated drink. i was whining bout it coz the sweetness will be complained by da dentist if da dentist ever check my teeth.

decided to go to the 2nd dental clinic after much consideration. so there i was, with heart beats beating faster than the usual rate. i made sounds, whining, wanted to get out from there and persuading fren to enter the room with me, were all i did to past the time. my turn arrived. da dentist checked my teeth after i asked him whether do i need to have braces and how to correct my gums. my fuckin jaw and set of teeth were shivering. my fren saw it. no doubt that da dentist saw it too. i was like "shit. why am i feeling like this. hide ur fear".

da dentist :: you dont need to have braces. just leave it as it is.
me :: are u sure?
da dentist :: yes. but u need to extract ur lower right wisdom tooth.

after scaling and polishing (i cant have lots of water in my mouth. i tend to puke it out. da dentist said that its just water and be good with it for few times..), i was satisfied with the service and also the fees.

he repeated that "forget bout braces. you dont need it". i was damn surpised - what a sweet escape am going thru. my mom said my teeth condition is terrible. her bad.

i might be going for another dentist consultation whether do i need to have braces on. yes, i dont believe that i dun need to have one.



prolly i will give it to my neighbour after playing it for few days.