it comes to a point...

".... when you realize:

Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won't anymore...
And who always will.,,,

Don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

as i grow older, i dont really bother on certain things. there are many other things to do besides taking petty issues in life. my doc indirectly told me dont take into heart ALL the probs, it will make u angry! we need to move forward and be matured. i cant be bothered with immature ppl who play dramas with me, the drama is just for nursery kids.ooh maybe kids nowadays dont play dramaqueen game, they play nintendo and ps3wei! nevertheless, i have plenty things to catch up with my life......

on d seperate note,
arghhhh, end of d mth is coming. this means i have to do monthy account statement for 30+ clients which must be completed by 1stweek of next month.

i-dunno-how-to-do-syndrome
is around the corner.
struggling sydrome is coming!!!

neeway, i think i love my job!!
i think
i think.
ask me a mth later!

i

i gotta ::

1. change my postpaid line to prepaid. i was extremely shocked with my phone bill for this mth.
2. improve my health. sick from tues to sat. suspect to have h1n1. a few trainees tested positive for h1n1. well no surprise that we ll get it since we were in d same ballroom for 3 weeks.
3. proof to my demanding boss that i can sccore super high for my trading license in mths to come.


i have been thinking ::

1. how to survive with the working life for 30 yrs.
2. to sell things in pasar malam whereby i ll b only working for 3/4 days out of 7 days.
3. about my future. do i want to be keeping track with the financial market every single working day. it get tired u know.


i promise myself ::

no more job hopping anytime soon. very sien to start a new job in a new environment. i miss my previous jobs.


i still want holiday badly. hahahaha.

i entered borders and checked out 'Trading For Dummies'. Read a lil and the info was useful. Checked out the price tag at the bar code. What an eighty three ringgit i must fork out!?? :(

I ♥ 2009!

2009 isnt that bad as I have thought. I was afraid I wont be achieving anything this year. No proper job. No achievement. Life will be stagnant this year. But hey, things started to get better stage by stage without me noticing it.

I was happy in 2008.
I am happy in 2009.

After receiving my certificate of accomplishment of a training today, I felt so relieved.








21days in Palace of Golden Horses.
480 trainees.
asssigned to be in orange group with 46 others.
now that I have learnt some skills, m gonna instill it in me.
Thanks SimeDarby for giving me the opportunities.
1 month training ended, 11 mths to go.
BUT....
It sucks that I wont be joining SD.
SD staffs were really really nice.
One day I might be back in SD.
Let me chase after my dream first and equip myself with some knowledge.

Neeway,
Well...... life goes on.

New job this monday!
I never wanted to work in KL.
Never wanted to be part of KL human traffic.
Amanda, WELCOME TO KL WORKING LIFE.

No leave for the next 3 months. Since March till now, I only had a week break ie during my singaporetrip. Sigh sigh.

i dont wanna decide again.

ystday as i was taking a nap (not being able to do so for 4 mths), i received a call from Maybank. I felt very very highly stupid for rejecting the interview for the post of analyst this coming tues. Why didnt I ask Maybank to delay the interview to end of July which I will be having a week break after my 3weeks training ends. I called back the number on my hp, but no valid. damn. however I felt very lazy to go to KL from palace of golden horses (training is in that venue). And secondly, I dont wanna weigh the pros and cons between 2 job offers again. Its a very difficult decision. I actually took a day off on fri to attend 2nd interview in another company. It seems that I received a good response from the interviewers, and they asked me, will I accept the post since I am kinda employed now. I really wanna work in both company.

so the question is

conglomerate company
VS
investment banking company

ONCE am in investment banking co, theres no turning back. theres a very minimum chance to work in my dream industries - aviation and oil & gas co.

on the other side, in a conglomerate co, there are many benefits (but I will be getting it in a year time, if only the co wanna take me in, right now m just a trainee with other 499 ppl). anyway I am placed in oil&gas link division ;) hapi.

m going back to hotel tonight (cheh wah! felt so grand for staying in hotel for 3 weeks. haha.) wont be back till the last day there ie 25july. i stumbled upon a blog randomly and some new trainees will be joining us tmw (sunday). it seems that this company wants the exact exact exact amount of trainees ie 500.


:: sometimes I am trying to read God's message ::
:: such as I got a job already, but another job offer came by ::
:: what should I do ::
:: how to weigh if both are equally good ::
:: both have different career progression ::

finally, could stop hunting for a job at d moment.

i t.h.i.n.k. i have made up my mind to undergo a 12-month training in a company, superb long duration for me and this decision will disappoint few ppl in my previous co because m supposed to start my job next month, but offer letter hasnt arrived. too bad for them. my-soon-to-be salary guarantees me not to enjoy the luxury lifestyle. so dont expect me to give u a treat, m trying to b frank. what more to even do a plastic surgery on my nose, propose a guy with diamond ring and wedding photo shots in brunei and korea. sad sad but life goes on. i will have a very minimum days off for a year too. m gonna die of exhaustion man.

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i came across a korean american unestablished singer, david choi. his songs r nice.
http://www.myspace.com/davidchoimusic
he can also b found in youtube.
my fren said he looks stupid. ;@
u see, small eyes with sharp nose is nice, isnt it?
ok, his nose arent d sharp kind, but m saying in genaral, it is a good combination rite?
back to davidchoi -
he composed a song - FART!
it goes...
fart.. its a natural thing to do.
u know m talking to u.
u looking at my profile.
...........
interesting guy he is, isnt he?

http://www.youtube.com/pauldateh

another talented fella. i love the hiphopviolin piece!
i think this guy is better than leehom in violin.

who is that?

while i was in a car heading to kl sentral, i saw a plump guy with funny way of walking, walking aimlessly at 530am around brickfield area this morning. prolly he didnt know the way heading to the std chartered marathon venue . i saw him once before ie during leehom's concert last year, and i was very very sure that it was him again this morning. it was kennysia. i dont read his blog now because i simply feel lazy to do so.

2 days till 1stjuly. i need more more holidays!!!!

;(

i get very irritated if ppl stop me from buying any food i m craving for.

i dont have appetite these few weeks.
at first the dishes look amazingly interesting, but after a few spoons, my appetite goes bleak.
sometimes i wish i dont need food.

sgpore trip was alrite. i took the risk to go there with passport valid less than 6 mths. ;) nothing much there in sg, not even the food in lau pa sat. .. but wait.. if i work in raffles place for 3 months, the food in laupasat might change my mind. during this trip, i have been to ikea, holland v, bugis, lil india, lau pa sat which i didnt go 3 yrs ago. for d 2nd time, d dessert in chinatown is sucky, the dessert stall opposite marina square is so much better. the great sgapore sales didnt look interesting. can u imagine i didnt even step into orchard, because it has d same stores in other places and my eyes sore when i see shops. adik n i didnt have mood to shop nor enter in whateva shops coz shopped to the max in states. neeway, this trip is to meet up with frens. a few peeps asked me whether did i ever consider working there in d future...... lemme get a sg guy first. ;)

i heart sg public transport more than sg guys. ;)


i hate this coming 1stjuly.
i hate to work.
i really do.
because i gotta start from the scratch all over again.
from filling to whateva shit la.
its not the place i really want to be.
but i have no choice.

'no human beings can live without a job'.
-plsremindmethat-