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dad ask again :: so, do u want the dog?
me :: i want, but mummy doesnt like it. does the dog shit in d house?
dad :: it doesnt even go out from the house.
me saying with a heavy heart :: then dont want la. it doesnt know how to cross the road. dont know how to see cars too. later, kena bang by car again. moreover the dog is small. cars cant see.

last day.

today marks d last day to be a big-eater. i am really having an issue with my weight. i have never talk bout this issue before, but not lately. i gotta learn how to eat less now. i tried not having 12 hours of meal few days ago. but there was a sign of gastric attacking.

possible reasons being a big-eater
:: see too many food-pictures.
:: despress.
:: too free.

izzit really not meant for me?

dad came home and ask me "uncle loh is gonna give away his cocker spaniel, shall we take it?, if not he will leave it in spca."

then suddenly i felt a 'piece-of-invisible-cold-wind" smash my face.

quickly i question myself "what if it happen again? and d doggie is brown in colour!" i have played with d dog during d entire dinner in uncle loh's house.

3 brown doggies of mine, firstly was brown dashuan puppy- dave - ran out and nowhere can be found. it was my very own dog. secondly, came a cocker spaniel puppy- ginger which my dad bought from his fren. my dad was confident that ginger will obediently sit by the ajar gate while he walked towards his car to take something. and there goes my ginger, ran out of d house and finally a bastard hit-and-run her. my golden retriever biggie dog - big boy was an extremently well-trained dog. he will not shit and urine in d compound. he would bark when he couldnt hold his bladders. he saw a bitch, and he ran from d house, hit by a car. the owner came down and apologized. i wasnt around when it happened. as far as i remembered, dad brought home big boy and i didnt wanna accept him although he is a hugable buddy. dad introduced me "big boy, this is amanda". he really said that but i didnt really bother to play with him after d introduction. it took me a week to finally accept him and touch him. my neighbour even bought a female golden retriever to make-mate with my doggie. when they approached us, it happen after his death.

my mum isnt a dog lover, she gives heavy sighs when she sees a dog in d compound. but as months went by, she was comfortable having d dogs, and could take a branch and play with their furs. i would like silently hide in a corner to see it.


we know that its jinx to have dogs in this family. but...... i need some living things to accompany me.

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while waiting for our dearest soyuz to b connected to d ISS from d live telecast in tv, i decided to throw some stuffs here.

i have been blogging too much in this month. look! my 6th post in 13 days!! i hardly read ppl's blogs as i used to do last time. well, i only read my frens' blogs. i havent been doing blog-hopping-on-famous-bloggers in msia nor any other places. the interest is deteriorating.

i should, must, hand wash my clothes tomorrow no matter what d weather is showing me. my dress for next week's wedding has been lying like no bussiness.

ppl have been noticing that i put on weight. sux. i dont know y i have d tendency to eat everyhour from a proper meal to milo to countless bananas and happily enjoying my chocolates which i dont really take before i have my teeth polished. thanks mr.dentist for polishing my teeth and you are making me eating sweet food. no, i dont want to have diabetes. i gotta control myself. 5 popiahs, each rm1 from d ramadan bazaar i ate 2 days ago. and amazing that i manage to have a proper dinner after that. ppl ask me why do i eat alot these days. i answered "depress"........

yes, finally Soyuz-TMA-10 astronauts have opened d ISS's hatch for Soyuz-TMA-11. now dr sheikh can float in d ISS after confining in d capsule for 2 days. every 6 months, a new soyuz will launch to ISS.

be proud. protect her.

fren sent me a link regarding an interview in bbc between msia's minister of foreign affairs n bbc's interviewer! the first question threw to d minister was tough. however he didnt really answer d questions as what d answers should be. in my opinion, those questions are really tough although it looked simple. he was finding d right words to avoid any issues arise. but the interviewer was a mean lady d way she present herself. she has done alot of research on what had happened in msia from someone wanting to change her religion from muslim to hindu to msia's development since independence.

i have been hearing and reading this quote

" outsiders cant insult my country, but not myself"

"i can only insult myself, but not u"


after watching d bbc's video, i was totally pissed on how bbc 'attacking' us. so i told someone to watch it. however he has watched it b4 coz he likes watching HardTalk in d wee hours. so we began exchanging opinions, and it got heated up and the conversation was getting out of d topic, and touched other issues. and when i said "msia is a muslim country...", his perspective changed. haha. i think not many non-south-east-asia-citizens know that fact and think that we are like sgpore - chinese country. so he apologized for being kinda harsh to me.

our country isnt like other muslim countries whereby we do loosen some rules n regulations. we allow western-entertainers to perform here but with certain rules n regulations like on costumes, no stripping, no shouting. i read from d newspaper saying that msia govt will give a green light to linkin park once for performing here without screaming n jumping. gwen stefani needed to change her concert costumes whereby she gotta cover from her shoulder to knees. she said she has put in alot of time just to plan what will d costumes like. beyonce couldnt take our not-so-strict-rules-n-regulations, and therefore that woman cancelled and didnt wanna perform here. stupid woman. dont want money from msia's audiences? neehow, i still like her song- listen.




i love malaysia. we are living in a peaceful country. u want to live in a havoc situation like iraq, still having wars when a 50th yrs old country have already sent her first malaysian cosmonaut to space???

protect ur malaysia when other citizens mouth bad her.

my 423 tic. and. lunch with sept 28 babes.

i bought a very expensive concert ticket. i couldnt believe it. you will not believe it neither. i promised myself that i would save money for my holidayz. no, i broke my promise before it hit the third month.

rm423

is all that makes my heart sink faster than titanic in 1921.

ah! i dare not tell anybody except for sugarpie cousin who are going with me, and whoever that read this. i lied to whoever that wanna know that it only cost rm200. korean singers' managements are making big ass huge profits. eg look at rain's most expensive tic - rm700+. SHE's most expensive 1st dec 2007 tic is only rm300+.

ah! heart felt painful. okok, let me look at the brighter side. my seat is 7th row from d stage. its EXACTLY in d middle. make sure d camera treats me nicely on that day.

hallelujah!

my bro asked izzit fahrenheit's concert? i wont go to their concert coz personally, some arent really good in singing. he asked, how much izzit? to make myself feel good, i said rm200. he jokingly said "tmw when u wake up, one of d ticket will b missing!"

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had lunch with two 28sept babes in jaya33's vietnam kitchen. towards d end of d lunch, we talked bout sripetaling and sriaman. was it me who brought up d question that shall we visit sripetaling after lunch? i cant remember. hehe. and deniece took my lil persuasion. it was a very nostalgia-feeling when i entered sripetaling. gates were locked around d corridor. we couldnt enter d classes to feel what izzit like being a lil kid again. showed yinmei the timbul-manhole-that-was-said-a-grave and d computer room n music room. somehow i felt eerie along d corridor between d library and staffroom. then we took a trip to sriaman, deniece said d guard is strict, so we didnt enter la. deniece then said "so wanna go to chimkindergarten?". that girl is teasing me!!

deniece & yinmei


haPPy 22nd biRtHday!!

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i gotta learn how to be fair to everybody. i felt difficult to keep something out from a person, but the other person knows it. i aint a secretive kinda person. but dont get mistaken, i can keep secrets. u can count on me babes! keeping something out from reaching some peeps because its for their own good i guess. u see, sometimes we lie coz we dont wanna hurt them. sometimes too we dont want the situation to get worse. i always think twice thrice whether to lie. when i reveal it after a very long time keeping it, all i get is "fuck u la". i dont blame them saying it out. coz i dont give a damn. ooh yeah, just had a conflict conversation in msn. damn shit. i dun give a damn. manda, be happy. it isnt worth thinking bout it!!! i am very much disliking talking to studborn ass ppl who has no respect for me. i know all of us have a d studborness in ourselves, but if u are talking to someone, u should eliminate certain degree of it. keep ur minds open, bastards! am just pure angry here.




i have given a task by dad to book some tics. i followed according to what he has wrote on d paper. when he found out that i blindly followed it, he scolded me. watonearth!!!??? he said i should like think b4 i book!! gosh, i aint a secretary who makes decisions. cousin told me b4 that when men reach 50's, their hormones change. i should label it as pms - post men sympthom. his characters are getting from bad to worse. ok, i know am doing a huge ass sin for saying it, but i just dont know who to tell it. i tried but what i get is "he says it coz he loves u". i dont believe that statement. when i complain this to my frens who arent staying with their parents now, all i get is "u r lucky coz they still nag u. now that i am in overseas, i miss their naggins". bullshit la. i dont get stress in studies, but i get it at home coz of bloody words they give me. if u are in my position, u will know it. if u have that kinda parents, u will know it. i dont feel appreciated for what i have done for them.

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i cant wait for next week to mark in my calendar. i believe that dbsk's tickets will b on sale in public and d floor seatings are important to me. i found quite a number of sites said pre-bookings can b made thru them. i have d urge to do it coz afraid that the seats that i want, no longer available. but on d other hand, i ask whether are they con-ners. i like love attending all this concerts-musical stuffs. i know i dont show that kinda interest in front of u coz its difficult to get someone like me who will spend their money and time on this. ooh yeah, today i had personal-concert ie i watched leehom's heroes of d earth dvd for nearly 3 hours alone, to get the concert-feeling back! sony-bmg should compile msia heroes of d earth concert into dvd. it was obviously nicer than taiwan's. jjlin on d piano is better than westlife on josh gorban's you raise me up. we have 'heart pillow' while he sung forever love, a basket of teddy bear while a song (cant recall) and a bouquet of flowers. look at taiwan's, they have one fake flower only. ok, enuff of all these.