my 423 tic. and. lunch with sept 28 babes.

i bought a very expensive concert ticket. i couldnt believe it. you will not believe it neither. i promised myself that i would save money for my holidayz. no, i broke my promise before it hit the third month.

rm423

is all that makes my heart sink faster than titanic in 1921.

ah! i dare not tell anybody except for sugarpie cousin who are going with me, and whoever that read this. i lied to whoever that wanna know that it only cost rm200. korean singers' managements are making big ass huge profits. eg look at rain's most expensive tic - rm700+. SHE's most expensive 1st dec 2007 tic is only rm300+.

ah! heart felt painful. okok, let me look at the brighter side. my seat is 7th row from d stage. its EXACTLY in d middle. make sure d camera treats me nicely on that day.

hallelujah!

my bro asked izzit fahrenheit's concert? i wont go to their concert coz personally, some arent really good in singing. he asked, how much izzit? to make myself feel good, i said rm200. he jokingly said "tmw when u wake up, one of d ticket will b missing!"

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had lunch with two 28sept babes in jaya33's vietnam kitchen. towards d end of d lunch, we talked bout sripetaling and sriaman. was it me who brought up d question that shall we visit sripetaling after lunch? i cant remember. hehe. and deniece took my lil persuasion. it was a very nostalgia-feeling when i entered sripetaling. gates were locked around d corridor. we couldnt enter d classes to feel what izzit like being a lil kid again. showed yinmei the timbul-manhole-that-was-said-a-grave and d computer room n music room. somehow i felt eerie along d corridor between d library and staffroom. then we took a trip to sriaman, deniece said d guard is strict, so we didnt enter la. deniece then said "so wanna go to chimkindergarten?". that girl is teasing me!!

deniece & yinmei


haPPy 22nd biRtHday!!

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i gotta learn how to be fair to everybody. i felt difficult to keep something out from a person, but the other person knows it. i aint a secretive kinda person. but dont get mistaken, i can keep secrets. u can count on me babes! keeping something out from reaching some peeps because its for their own good i guess. u see, sometimes we lie coz we dont wanna hurt them. sometimes too we dont want the situation to get worse. i always think twice thrice whether to lie. when i reveal it after a very long time keeping it, all i get is "fuck u la". i dont blame them saying it out. coz i dont give a damn. ooh yeah, just had a conflict conversation in msn. damn shit. i dun give a damn. manda, be happy. it isnt worth thinking bout it!!! i am very much disliking talking to studborn ass ppl who has no respect for me. i know all of us have a d studborness in ourselves, but if u are talking to someone, u should eliminate certain degree of it. keep ur minds open, bastards! am just pure angry here.




i have given a task by dad to book some tics. i followed according to what he has wrote on d paper. when he found out that i blindly followed it, he scolded me. watonearth!!!??? he said i should like think b4 i book!! gosh, i aint a secretary who makes decisions. cousin told me b4 that when men reach 50's, their hormones change. i should label it as pms - post men sympthom. his characters are getting from bad to worse. ok, i know am doing a huge ass sin for saying it, but i just dont know who to tell it. i tried but what i get is "he says it coz he loves u". i dont believe that statement. when i complain this to my frens who arent staying with their parents now, all i get is "u r lucky coz they still nag u. now that i am in overseas, i miss their naggins". bullshit la. i dont get stress in studies, but i get it at home coz of bloody words they give me. if u are in my position, u will know it. if u have that kinda parents, u will know it. i dont feel appreciated for what i have done for them.

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i cant wait for next week to mark in my calendar. i believe that dbsk's tickets will b on sale in public and d floor seatings are important to me. i found quite a number of sites said pre-bookings can b made thru them. i have d urge to do it coz afraid that the seats that i want, no longer available. but on d other hand, i ask whether are they con-ners. i like love attending all this concerts-musical stuffs. i know i dont show that kinda interest in front of u coz its difficult to get someone like me who will spend their money and time on this. ooh yeah, today i had personal-concert ie i watched leehom's heroes of d earth dvd for nearly 3 hours alone, to get the concert-feeling back! sony-bmg should compile msia heroes of d earth concert into dvd. it was obviously nicer than taiwan's. jjlin on d piano is better than westlife on josh gorban's you raise me up. we have 'heart pillow' while he sung forever love, a basket of teddy bear while a song (cant recall) and a bouquet of flowers. look at taiwan's, they have one fake flower only. ok, enuff of all these.

fly away

"hey im leaving 4 uk dis weekend. sorry that i didnt tell earlier was really busy cos it was last min decision. neeway, take care n hope 2 c u wen im back"

i was totally sad after reading it. there wasnt a single news bout my fren for 2 mths, and finally this is d sms i got. sad sad sad. so i called and we talked abit..... another library buddy is no longer with me. now i have ZERO library buddy..

last week was unexpected. i got a call from my frens in uk and in ohio.

just for dbsk.

*personally i think, fourth from d left looks like disband f4's jerry yan*
*i have watched a few videos during their promotions, and noticed that junsu must stand on d left, followed by micky, hero, max and u-know*
*they have funny and extraordinary names that always wanna make me lauch*
*oohhhlala, i think u-know is hot, the one on d right la, hes 1986 kiddo*


my sugarpie cousin is coming from oz just to attend dbsk concert on nov 24 in kl! ok. to make it not exaggerating, shes planning to come maybe 2 weeks earlier as planned to attend d concert. initially i didnt bother although i know they are coming. but then i was too free to the point, i youtube-d them. d interest on them gradually getting stronger. their dances are energetic and synchronize - i knew it when i attended dbsk or tvsfq or gods rising from the east or tohoshinki or dbsg (this 5 koreans members specialise in cool dances has many names to their group) last year's 14th july (yes, i dug for d ticket just now to get d date.. hmm i believe its suhui's bday). on that day, i got a call to attend a concert. i asked whose's, was told, unfortunely i didnt know who they were. when i was there, i took a glance at the posters hung around d stadium. i recalled " this guys are so gay coz they highlighted their hair like lala guys". we bought 1 litre of mineral water, and not allowed to bring in. so i gulpped it, and they gulpped too. we rushed (didnt run alrite, wasnt so crazy) as we were kinda late. it was free seating in the highest tier, so we chose the highest seat in d highest tier. below us were empty, but the tier below we occupied by majority of korean students studying here. after youtubing dbsk, i found out that dbsk's management really invest a big sum of money just to make the stage looks good and also on dbsk's costumes. i didnt expect there is a stage extension from the main stage to the other end of d stadium, it was better than leehom's stage extension in taiwan.

neeway, sugarpie cousin is asking me to get rm300+ tixs!! omg. am gonna b broke. i know its cheap for her! i might b throwing my rm300+ just to b close to d stage. no, i am not crazy over them. its because i just want the concert-atmosphere and concert-feel. sitting far away from d stage will not make me satisfy and i will complain as long as its still ringing in my head, i have learnt it during leehom's....


am crossing my fingers to get free tixc!!! if someone ask u whether u want d tic but u cant attend it, gimme! i will spend u a meal!

bla

the design of d house is nice. but in my opinion, the gate is a lil too big, which makes the front looks small. i like the victorian-era-lamps-beside-the-gate. unlike mine which are 2 white plain balls, boring-nya. i love seeing big-self-design houses. ok, who doest? there were times i drove around damansara heights just to see houses. i will bring along my camera to capture nice houses one day.





a talented guy that i really respect, stays in this town. what really captured my attention was the roundabouts!!



am feeling physically tired now. but because of insomnia, i know i will not fall asleep although lying on d bed. dark cicles around my eyes are gonna be visible SOON! i dont want to be like wuwu's panda eyes!!

i hate myself.

i wish that somebody kidnap me while am in d nite market.
then several days later, suffocate me
n stuff me into a sports bag.
and leave it at a noticable place.
i hate myself.
why God doesnt wanna take away peeps who hate themselves?
why He wants ppl to suffer?
why He doesnt wanna fulfill my ideal death?
(well its not being kidnap la, my ideal death is something else)
frankly speaking
there were several times i wanna end my life
by strangling myself and suffocate using pillow
while having difficulty breathing
a reminder saying "u havent accomplished ur missions"
so i released myself
coughed
breathed for air.

i pity Nurin. i still dont believe that the dead girl pic is her. it looks different. the mouths, eyes r different, but not d noses. however DNA says it all.

this week.

last week's lunch!

mon :: mcdees' banana pie and apple pie
tuesday :: mcdees fries
wed :: mcchicken, fries, coke
fri :: 2 hashbrowns

i am devoted to mcdees. i havent been eating mcdees since sept last year, coz i was totally broke. i gotta used my allowances, which is not much, for my tuition with a group of frens. am glad i pass that subject. i vowed that i need to pass it no matter what. because it was so sickening to drive to fren's place using federal highway at 6pm and only could reach home at 10pm. sickening shit really. and i hate that place.

i have a serious insomnia illness i guess. i had 2 hours of sleep at d wee hours on wed before dragging myself out from the bed. i was damn pissed as soon as my alarm rang coz i only managed to sleep properly minutes b4 it rang. after d lecturer dismissed us, i woudnt stand due to my headache, and thus went to d library to take a nap - 90 minutes!!! and again today, i had headache, worse that wed's. went to library, couldnt sleep properly, thus flagging a cab, and headed home. took 5 hours of sleep. i can afford to hail a cab to go home now provided that i dun spend my money on mcdees happy meal set everyday.


i have class on every sat.. sighhhh. kinda tired having only one day of rest in a week and this gonna prolong till april!!