whats his name?

no idea why suddenly i think about perez.
the name perez.

i was thinking bout perez hilton moment ago.
then i recall recall and recall that i know a guy call something perez.
i tried to think whats his first name.
think. think think.
took me 5 mins.
i wanted to write here that
"sooheng, whats that guy's name".

ooh nvm. i could recall his name before i type the first letter in this post.
well,
hes a jerk. lol.
he really pisses me off each time we chat in msn.
i will end up block him. after weeks, i unblock him. then block him.
then deleted his name in fb. he added back. i deleted again.
the last conversation i had wit him was me commenting on his gf (forgotten from where). being too matured for him, and he got angry.
lol. i dont care neeway.

okok. i dunno why i was thinking bout perez.
damn out wei my brain.

its june in 1.5hours time. will be alone in office till friday. and i shall have a good time finishing my reports while attending lame clients' calls and doing the most unless thing on earth ie filling shit. how i wish i can wipe my shit wit those papers. i hate to file everyday. its not the filling that u punch holds into the stack of papers and just insert in the file. i gotta insert in respective clients' divider. see which page needs to be replaced wit the new printed ones. sounds fun or not?

a guy has sexy lips.

yes he has it.
i kept on looking at it.
and yes he has that lips that are suitable for females.
surely do.
he isnt gay, i m very sure.

i nearly had heart attack.

my handphone rang and boss's name appeared. words ran into my mind "omg, wat on earth did i do on fri? wat kinda fcuku mistake i have made again? i guess nth went wrong coz i checked zillion times on my orders"

me :: hello?
boss :: blablablabla ... just to call if client xxx's orders done?
me :: lalalalala... no, none of xxx's orders done coz he didnt wanna revise his prices! i asked him twice .... blalalalala
boss :: lalalalala. ok lalalala

phewww. i tot something major happened to me and my all-day-alone-at-work-last-fri.

sad to say that my work is really terrified. one major ass mistake made, no turning back. if the mistake is soooooo significant like it weighs rm50k, gone kaboom. management will fire u and you cant work in this same industry anymore. blacklisted from securities commission and nobody ll hire you eventhough u cry like a river.

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my fridge has too many bars of chocolates. the same packages i see 2 years ago. nobody touches it. i aint a die hard fan of it. i really dont care on the expiring dates therefore i shall feed myself with all these choco before m off to somewhere during next yr's easter to get a whole new bunch of cocoas. cocoa doesnt expire i guess.

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it has been a tiring weekend for me.
tmw is m.o.n.d.a.y.

fated but not fated!

after a week of questioning myself and asking ppl around for opinions,

i may conclude that i m sticking to my current job.

by hook or by crook
in this love-hate relationship
with sweat, blood, tears

i.must.hold.on.

hold on for as long as i need to. not as long as i want.
i repeat. as long as i need to.

majority said 'go get transfer'.
but a particular friend of mine managed to convince me over lunch yesterday not to get transfer. just wait and see how things go within 6 mths, she said. shes a very wise friend, so her words do make sense. i will be occupied for 6 mths, therefore i will not be ACTIVELY searching for job. m too lazy d.

and i phoned HR HOD again for his verdict. i asked him what is my chances like if i wanna get transfer. he is too good and too nice to help me again to come up with reasons-to-tell-boss. one of the reasons is 'you go to temple, pray, hold the sticks and ask god to build up ur guts'. he could read my mind 'i know you still dont have guts. if you tell your boss, surely she will teaaar you apart'. hes funnny. he laughed when he picked up my call and said 'hello, siu chier' before i could greet him. he also mentioned to me just now on the 3rd vacant position in other department. haha. i didnt drop any hints last week that i wanna get out from my job scope badly.

so yeah. please put a smile on my face by giving encouragement words if you ever hear me whinning bout me-wanna-get-out-from-this-job.

from zero commitment to plentiful.

m going broke.

insurances.
unit trusts.
upcoming holiday expenses.
long term investments.
short term investments.

i need to sit down one fine day and draw up how much these babies are forking out from my bank account.

make sure i become rich in many many decades to come with all these commitments.

how many thousand days more am i living with economy rice or food for lunch?

*counting downnnnnnnnnnnn*

where to go?

i wanna go on a holz.

where to?

i dunno.

i shall check out airasia free ticket hrs later.

i miss london.

i must go there once more to rescue my huge empty luggage covered with layers of dusts from aunt's store room. she insisted to throw it away when she saw it.

if anyone of u going there, dont bring along a huge luggage. you can bring mine back.

;)

opportunity came!

i wanna get a transfer to another division.

i would like to try out but how to tell my boss and HR?

i guess boss will give me a look.

i went to HR to pass something. HR told me that there is/are vacancy(ies) in another department, and so happen the other-department lady was there. HR was like promoting and praising me to her.

i guess the jobscope is better than my current one.

ok the truth is i have been planning to resign since 845am just now and told colleague not to be suprise if i tender a resignation letter by this week. i made a fcuking big ass mistake that me.myself.and.i couldnt believe it. i was like wtfuking when i knew my mistake and waiting for boss to come to work is the most stressful moment today because i had to tell her my idiotic mistake. boss informed client and he is the best-of-the-bestest client ever, he said he will pay for my mistake. he said the matter is small. lossing usd1600 is small to him. i felt very guilty after apologizing to him and he would like to pay for it. boss told the client "my staffs will love you. if every clients are like you, this will be great".

i think GOD is sending a message to me.

so who should i approach first?

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shit USA market gonna open in 2 mins time. i shall log into my system to check whether i have keyed in correctly.