fated but not fated!

after a week of questioning myself and asking ppl around for opinions,

i may conclude that i m sticking to my current job.

by hook or by crook
in this love-hate relationship
with sweat, blood, tears

i.must.hold.on.

hold on for as long as i need to. not as long as i want.
i repeat. as long as i need to.

majority said 'go get transfer'.
but a particular friend of mine managed to convince me over lunch yesterday not to get transfer. just wait and see how things go within 6 mths, she said. shes a very wise friend, so her words do make sense. i will be occupied for 6 mths, therefore i will not be ACTIVELY searching for job. m too lazy d.

and i phoned HR HOD again for his verdict. i asked him what is my chances like if i wanna get transfer. he is too good and too nice to help me again to come up with reasons-to-tell-boss. one of the reasons is 'you go to temple, pray, hold the sticks and ask god to build up ur guts'. he could read my mind 'i know you still dont have guts. if you tell your boss, surely she will teaaar you apart'. hes funnny. he laughed when he picked up my call and said 'hello, siu chier' before i could greet him. he also mentioned to me just now on the 3rd vacant position in other department. haha. i didnt drop any hints last week that i wanna get out from my job scope badly.

so yeah. please put a smile on my face by giving encouragement words if you ever hear me whinning bout me-wanna-get-out-from-this-job.