need. must. should. search whats good for me.

these few years, there were many downside things cropped up.
but i managed to get away from troubles and disappointments.

i always tell myself after getting away from whateva, that i will go to a worship place to thank.

hmmm... wonder when and where will it be.

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on d seperate note,

when will i be perfect at work?
again i made mistake today.
all the mistakes i made was forgivable and boss has warned me over n over again.
each time i placed a stock order, i feel very very nervous. i double triple zillion check before clicking submit. but when m busy, and orders were placed in a kan-cheong manner, i also go kancheong and mistakes occur. its not easy to monitor few shares at one time during placing orders for clients.

ystday i had to monitor closely for a stock for a good 20-so-minutes before the HongKong mkt close at 4pm. very kancheong and kept on changing the share price for client. had to hold on to my bladder.

me: can u pls do a favour for me, monitor the share for me. i wanna go to d toilet.
colleague: u run to d toilet and quickly come out.

i ended up holding my bladder till m done with d share. pheeew.

i guess one day i will b fired coz of HUGEASS mistake.
untangible-money is what ll get me fired.

but i still do love my job.

colleague's phone rang: hello..
client: ... bla bla bla *i dunno what they r talking).. it goes something like* why u pick up this line? isnt this amanda's line. has she resigned.
colleague: ... (talking in cantonese), this is my line. why? u wanna talk to her?
client and colleague : bla bla bla.........

after their conversation,

me: i heard my name.
colleague: he asked whether have u resigned?
me: siao. why ppl expect me to resign so fast, even client also want me to resign. hes putting a curse on me. I-WONT-RESIGN unless boss fire me.


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nites adios, tmw is fri. yippieyuppieshit.

m in mood for broadway shows.

after fb-ing vi on go-and-watch-theatre-shows in chicago, it strucked me that i have to watch a broadway-musical-wateva-theatre this year.

seen::

-FAME
-BLUEMAN
-STOMP!


i can forget bout les miserables coz it wont b shown here.

time to check out istanabudaya shows.

huppyhoppyhippy

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sad but d truth is...

i have no life.

my fren also said that because i havent been listening to radio for 1.5 months. i managed to remember(ooh well after 3 weeks of telling myself to bring it bring it bring it...) to bring along my headphone, pluck it to d hp to listen for fm radio service while on the way to work. is the latest song shakira's wolf or perhaps rihanna's teamo?

1. managed to eat meileng's mooncake on sat after getting it from her on wed. 3 days to open it up and munch it down. fresh. nice. not sweet. thumbs up.

2. managed to meet a fren today after many many times ffk.

3. managed to meet sooheng. delayed the meet-up for 2 weeks i think. thanks for the VS.

enojada!

v v v v v enojada here!

i waited waited and waited for dad to be back. i tried to sleep soundly but still couldnt and i was wide awake. he came back and i quickly told him i wanna buy a US stock. he said that the account is for singapore stocks.

v v v v enojada. now i couldnt sleep because of this and its 3am while m typing my frustration out here.

god, help me!

m addicted to u!

right now m checking out USA stocks. mammamia. i need to sleep but still glue-ing my eyes on d price. let it drop pls pls pls.

m diverting my focus from singapore mkt to USA.
got really frustrated and angry coz couldnt buy a stock last fri and d price has increased 10%. 10% looks very lil but 10% in 2 days???!!! but i dunno whether the price ll drop after i buy it. or maybe it ll not. should have opened, read and replied d text sent by parents' remisier on mon morning by giving him d green light to buy it at the price i wanted badly. but busy lil bee chose to ignore and continued doing her work and managed to open d text during lunch.

colleague ll go "look at the screen, its going up!"

for 2 days, i have been saying "i have no eyes to see d price of that share anymore!"

so right now, should i gamble my money on another share which i have been eyeing for a week?? hmmm. gonna tell parents' remiser to buy for me without parents' knowledge. muahahahahaha.

right now after d mkt has opened for merely 2 hours, that share has dropped 7.92%!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

don't be happy lil rascal!

gimme a break!

i think m doing nonsense at my work station especially d endless-filling - print clients' portfolios and throw (i mean recycle) the previous a4 paper.

everysingle day gotta file and i hate it so muchy.

m the environmental-friendly person and i feel very guilty and sad for printing the nonsense, why cant boss view clients' portfolios from her laptop? she once told me dont-use-recycle-paper-for-whateva-purpose. neeway, i really do think that boss needs another assistant to make it 3. maybe one day i should give a hint to the biggest boss in this dept since my boss said that no budget to hire another assistant. i think i gotta see the biggest boss every mth to get his approval on boss's claims.

-i hardly have the time to read the emails sent to me especially from the researcher team.
-i only drink like 900ml of water during working hours. as far as i know, colleague forgotten twice to drink her water from d gigantic water bottle, not until 5pm.
-sometimes when i pass by the pantry, i feel like hiding beside the steel-cabinet to watch CNN that always gotta on for approx 10 hrs but ... nobody watches it coz no time to do so.
-as i get to my work station minutes b4 the official working time, i hold a pen while using another hand to eat my breakfast.
-lunch time is like 1.5 hours but i only use 30mins and the remainder is to do my work.

today in our work station room at 10am,

colleague :: i wanna go to toilet.
me :: i also want to go, u go first.

and i totally forgotten to go when she was back, and i managed to go at 12pm-ish.
can u see we cant leave nobody in the room. some annoying clients need to be entertained when they phone. now m starting to worry whos gonna be back to work on 3rd day of CNY next yr!!!



listen up,
on tues, i think i gotta reach office at 730am coz colleague is on leave and i have many tasks to complete b4 boss comes in at whateva time. m gonna die on that day. lets pray that market is badddddd on tues and i can concentrate on my reports printing for the monthly end statement preparation. report printing gotta be done on the day itself and cant defer as figures will not b d same on the last day of d mth and first day of next mth. ;(

i havent really get to key in local stocks orders. from my pt of view, very pressurize to key in local stocks as m very afraid i could key in wrongly the buy/sell or price or quantity or even wrong clients and shit happens if i gotta repay the amount for my carelessness... and i m a very clumsy and careless person. fingers cross that this shit wont happen la. for foreign shares, at least i can relax a lil and nobody can blame me if clients cant get the price they wanted. ;)

and.... is this d job i wanted? hahahahaha

i need to get my life fix by reading d newspaper and listen to radio. i havent been reading newspaper consistently since july. and what more, gotta keep abreast with the current biz world. but trust me, biz page is way better than politics page.

maybe its time for me to daydream a lil about USA life like what Vi used to do so for 2 yrs...? but there is way-below-zero chances that i ll go there to work. if i would like to go there for holz, maybe after quitting this job, or after getting married to prince or retire poorly. i told myself that i wanna retire on 2nd week of work. last week, colleague told me that she wanna retired. sigh....

felt tired till i pampered myself by spending money on clothes for 2 weeks after work on the way back home. annoyingbitch bought clothes before her salary comes out!! *gives a pat on her back while rolling her eyes*

Congrats ViJeJe .
u gonna breathe the USA air soon eventhough its not for a long period....

lurve money, who doesnt!?

as i was checking client's portfolio,

me :: what??? is this amount right? earned rm28k?
colleague :: u see how long he kept the stock...
me :: around 1 mth only. i wanna marry him. quite young 30+ only...

beh tahan wei! i see ppl making money - rm28k P.R.O.F.I.T!!!!! in a blink of month and i only get salary without any side income!!!

i
need
capital
and
'tumpang'
ppl
to
buy
stocks
for
me
!

been hinting to dad that i wanna tumpang at his account. he told me "why hurrying! u study the market first!" hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmpppppppp

told bro to open an account, i will take care of it without him contributing anything. he didnt buy my words.... hmmmmmmmmmmmpppp

any solutions?



fyi, i cant have a stock opening account coz prohibited to do so by BursaM.
sad sad sad.