the thirteen pages

13 pages i must play in my piano exam and some Q & A sections, all in 30 minutes or so. all i could do is, hope that my fingers would cooperate with me. i dont wanna screw it up. i have been praticising till the point whereby my fingers were burning hot. then after taking break for few minutes, gotta continue praticing. i have developed a stiff neck and shoulder and backache 2 days ago as the consequences of praticing it for 6 hours. i cant really turn my head 90 degrees to the right and left (our head can only turn 180 degrees), i felt the pain when my head bends down and look up. all these pain will be worth if i pass the exam. last week i cried coz i was worried that i couldnt play smoothly. it felt good to cry out. i know theres no point to do so as my tears wont transform my fingers to play like a professional. i calm myself down by saying "big girls dont cry". and so i kept pushing myself till today. all i could wish for is to pass it and i wanna get over it. it took me 5 fugly years to get to this point ie to complete it. this is the last stage, come on.

the delicious apple

what a long day i had in oneutama. my parking ticket says i entered the car park compound at 1248 and exit at 2048. exactly 8 hours. never before i spent such an amazing one quarter of my day there (it took one minute to find parking space). friend bought a luggage, and we were pratically taking turns to scroll it within oneutama for 7 hours and had 3 breaks - chats over lunch, tea and dinner. its fun to walk with it, the luggage was getting heavier and heavier as hours passed by coz we 'chuck' our stuffs in it. ppl look at us. heck la. worth our 8 hours there as 3 of us didnt go home with empty hands.


XOXO, G2000, Blook, Elle, PADINI&CO, UnionBay, Fila is on sales. cant remember the rest of d shops. wonder what happen to mng, it just vanished like that.


i have the habit to walk to my favourite fragrance counter and get a spray on my top, and when the sales person walks out, i run away. and friends said i have this dirty but good tactic whereby my sprayings arent visible to the sales person. hehe. argh, i should have gotten dkny's delicious over ralph lauren's natural spray and ralph lauren's romance. romance fragrance can last for 2.5 days but the fragrance is very strong on the first day eventhough u give just a drop on ur clothes. ralph lauren's hot smells like coconut and vanilla, hate it. i heard britney's fragrance smells shit, havent tried it. lancome's miracle smells shit at first, but as hours passes my, the smell is getting better, forgotten what smell it is. will be hitting the malls often, will try more. woohoo.

these few weeks, i have over-used-my-eyes. its glued to the computer screen for work. am advised by a fren not to over-work but am a slave to money. cant help it thou. eyes hurting. argh. backache. argh. headache. argh.

fly babeh fly

she called me that shes leaving in 20 minutes time. i remembered vividly that i was the one suggested to go to cedar point. the place where i have dreamt for few days. the place where i saw colourful lil kiosks and kids running excitedly while sucking their lollipops and eating coated candy (with christina aguilera). we agreed to go together. but god-knows-what has failed my plan.

she sounded sad. i never heard that voice of hers before whenever she calls me. actually am sad too. but nah, in 5 months time she will be back to tell me stories (perhaps stories on how hot the guys in cedar point will be) and show me thousands of pictures (she loves to snap pics here and there la). cant wait to see the pictures......

no jokes. no conversations that are half nonsense. my life will be empty for 5 months. goodbye my friend.

*am still sad ok when i know i cant go since january, yeah, its time to move on, but do u know how it feels when a huge plan just fails to be accomplished?*

quote::
sometimes life gotta go on no matter what.

when it comes to food..

"Actually, I feel that a successful person shouldn’t say anything bad/untrue behind people’s back but instead, they need to carry the kind of attitude of improving themselves so they will lose with no regrets and still end up as a winner!"
-wuchun-


i should be listening to this brunei hottie words, but heck, sometimes we as humans, will just open our mouths and talk bout ppl behind their backs although vowing zillion times that we wont do such a sin. sometimes its good to say it out so that the party, listening is aware of it and wont make the same mistakes done by others.

i have been thinking whether to blog bout rude and selfish ppl for days. i should give me a shot. i will feel better.

i dont know wheres this world heading to, more and more ppl are getting more selfish and rude, no matter whether they are kiddos from kindergarten or to working adults.


:: a standard one kid and me ::
i was staring at her eating sausage with mayoinese (how on earth to spell it) wrapped with fillet fish. i swallowed my saliva while still staring at her. i couldnt resist and took the paper bag lying on the table to have a look. there are two fillet fish in it. i was delighted

me:: can i have one piece. *i was praying hard coz i really like fillet fish)
kiddo:: no. u cant. my mom bought for me.

i murmured "wth! so young and shes already selfish and rude".
this kiddo really has no hope in the future..i mean she has no manners. if she were to meet an uncle of mine, he will either scold her right to her innocent puppy looking eyes or report it to her parents. i remembered my uncle scolded me coz he bullied my bro zillion years back, and i told my bro "dont play with him anymore". my uncle scolded me right and left when he heard it. from that moment, whenever i wanna open my big mouth, i think thrice, until today. in fact i do it to all uncles.

:: A just hit puberty and me ::
she was standing in the kitchen eating some pasteries la. nobody was in the kitchen besides her. i was walking towards her and saw her eating. the way she eats like she doesnt want ppl to see her action. and so i said,

"wow. u r hiding here to eat. why dont u enter the room, nobody will see you eat."

and she REALLY did enter the room and eat in the dark.

"she really entered the room when i was bullshitting. wth. so selfish until to this point." i said to myself.

and again, if any of my uncles see this, they will scold her. they never scolded me before when it comes to food because i would offer them although more than half of the time they reject my offers. whats wrong offering ppl, its just a bloody piece of food. can buy when its finish right! dont tell me its the end of the world and you will never have the chance to eat it after today?



i wonder where are their manners go to. if you have a child in the future, educate them some manners. besides teaching them 'thanks', 'sorry' etc, do not neglect the manners of offer-food-to-ppl.

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msia's population = 27 mil
sg's population = 4.4 mil
brunei's population = nearly 0.4 mil
aus's population = 20.9 mil

ppl tend to run to australia although its a very lay back country. some smarties considering singapore although life there is hectic and its never gonna slow down. hmm.. maybe i should consider brunei in the future. small country with free medical services, subsidy on rice and housing, fuel prices are cheap. i heard car prices r cheap too. need to educate myself more on brunei.

i havent been watching neither movies nor more than 4 episodes of my series. was busy with work. had to bring it back too. and i have finished it and time to hunt for another work. money isnt easy to earned if you are depending entirely all by urself to make it real. i have dateline to beat to hunt for money to make my dream come true. it MUST be accomplished.

quote ::
"no money, no talk. if you have money, you can do anything with it."

anything as in legal la. be realistic abit ok.

ciaoz.

soon.....

IS COMING!

in 8 days!

i remember we declared 2 weeks of holidayz during xmas, and i have watched 10 movies. now, with 12 weeks of holidayz hidding in the calendar, will i be watching 60 movies?? am gonna catch what i have missed since september not only movies, but every corner in my lifestyles. gotta compress 9 months stuffs into 3 months stuffs, way to go! everyday i have been screaming to myself in the house since monday, and santarina said i'm a sohpoh everyday.

my sleeping hours have been inconsistent. eventhough its 4am, i still cant sleep. and as the consequence, i rested my head on the table for 3 seconds during my paper, and realised time is precious, and i sat straight and wrote till my wrist has 6 pacs.


am gonna onetreehill-ing
am gonna theoc-ing
am gonna lagunabeach-ing
am gonna lost-ing
am gonna prisonbreak-ing
am gonna hero-ing
am gonna desperatehouwives-ing
am gonna smurf-ing
am gonna lickmytoes

and pls, my 12 weeks of holz isnt all about hooking up with shows. how on earth am gonna stay 12 weeks in d house. silly, am gonna find a job also occay. i am a lil of workaholic. sometimes i work whenever theres public holidays (u know, some occasions, KL have holz and PJ doesnt have) . need cash neeways for some activities.
cant wait to break my 9 months of routines.
fine, wasting my time now.
gotta run to my books.
am gonna miss my notes till october.
*sobbing*sobbing*laughing*sobbing*laughing*

sweet sugar coated candy life is coming babeh

angel wings

anybody knows where to get angel wings like the pic above.
(i think the pic shows butterfly wings, but just assume its angel wings)
ebay is out of my list.
its for my halloween this year. hahahahahahahaha.

do tell me.
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no iron chef skills

kick-s-girl and shyu has been showing signs of motherhood in their blogs. i guess ailin and lihyein too have been showing those signs.



no, they havent been eyeing on baby clothes lately.
and they havent been experiencing morning-vomitting.
neither they started to nag alot.
nor chewing lots of lots of asam.



i'm talking bout cooking or baking or doing whateva shit in the kitchen. mind me.



i knew it when lihyein bake cheesecake for ml's 12midnite-suprise-bday. knew ailin with her cakes thingy in her msn nicks, i havent tried a single piece of her cakes yet. and ml.. ya, YOU ML! where is ur speciality dishes at my door steps?? these fellas, only cook for someone special at their heart hor.







i damn sux at cooking. wait, i havent even tried my hands in the kitchen except for cooking instant noodles if situations really force me to do so. dont play play, i'm a good cook in instant noodles. ;P

my fren came and my dad tried to embarassed me,
"ask amanda to cook a dish for u, maybe ask her to cook an egg"

santa and santarina always praise their son for knowing how to cook fried rice. and when relatives ask me what can i cook, they will reply for me, "nothing". then they will bla bla with their ancestors' stories that i must learn how to cook coz i'm a girl. aiyah, greet me with ur open arms - the fact that i'm one of the minority women in the world that dont like to cook.

why some ppl cant accept the fact that i dont like to touch kitchen utensils. if i'm home alone and really really hungry and i have no food to eat, i rather sleep then hunting up and down for ingredients and throw it at the wok. if i'm really really hungry like a hungry ghost, i will cook instant noodles although knowing that its bad for health. or maybe keep on eating fruits.


every woman in the world must know how to cook meh? women that dont know, are they considered as not women? what about all men must know how to do carpentary stuffs, men that dont know, meaning they are not man la!!


in my entire life so far, i have done gardening more than cooking. i'm not-the-iron-chef-person! so dont ask me to prepare any dishes in the near future. knowing the fact that i will lose out in the future by not knowing how to cook now, nevermind, so many coffee
shops, restaurants and cafes around. its growing like mushrooms after the rain. i can just hop into the cheapest and most valuable eating places. how restaurant owners gonna earn money if nobody will eat in their restaurants. hehe.




places that are lousy in my opinion::
the kim gary kinda food. the food is like prisoner food. prince(ss2)'s menu looks like kimgary's too.

then hor, oug's thrusday pasar malam's food like shit. haha. especially the char kuey tiow on the mobile truck/lorry/whateva. their charkueytiow isnt the authentic charkueytiow you get from else where. the hawker serves you kueytiow with the yellow noodle. if you want only kueytiow, the hawker wouldnt want you as his customer. bummer.


is secret recipe cakes really that nice? i was there with crazee friends that know how to order like never eaten cakes b4, ordered around 4 types of cakes. and i didnt go gaga over a single of the 4 flavours. i highly recommend chillis' mighty pie cake. yummilicious.