june is ending.

first day of the next mth is coming, means that i gotta do reports next week.
sucks.

m feeling extremely tired.
took half day MC ystday.
boss jokingly said that i went for interview.
i have planned to take few days of leave soon.
but since wit the MC ystday, damn it, will boss approve my leave?
ooh well maybe. ;)

m totally broke.
rm100+ left in my bank account.
no, silly, i didnt buy stocks.
i dare not buy because i have unrealised losses of rm7k in ONE STOCK.
i wouldnt say it was a bad choice to buy that particular stock, because the positive outcome can only be seen when the economy is FULLY recovered.
there isnt ANY signs that global economy has or going to recover.
this is my two cents.
anyway my every-mth-salary goes to my every-sat-activity.
expensive activity.

it could be for dietary programme?
could be scuba diving lessons?
could be preparation for marriage?
could be flying to brunei every week?
could be ... cant think of any.
muahahahahahahhahaaaaaa.

ol' habit for a yr.

i really dont mind to work 16 hours a day to gain heaps of skills and experience and get fat pay slip and fat bonus cheque than just gamble for ppl, cutting newspapers articles, bank in cheques for clients, doing filling every single idiotic working days.

i have the everyday-habit of thinking and questioning the same ol' things while doing filling and cutting articles.

i will be like "wth and wtf m i doing wit these tasks that even a nursery kid can do. is this all i want? m i doing these tasks for real, as in i m not dreaming and this is a real job i m handling wit in d reality world? "

i really question myself that everydayyyyyy. i dunno why but cant help it. i wish i can just get married to a heir who owns an investment bank.

i would grab one when...

... when i m sad.
... when i m angry.
... when i m hapi.
... when i m stress.
... when nobody is eating it.
... when i have nothing to do.
... when i m rewarding myself.
... when i need motivation.

i have been eating chocolates very frequent now.
at least one a day.

i cant remember buying any choco in msia for the past 24 years for personal consumption not until yesterday.
i m becoming a lady.
what a silly conclusion la. lol.

i was dead drained out when i came back at 5pm and cancelled an outing in the nite coz i m exhausted, mentally and physically. i went to bed not long after i came back, and slept the way through till 830pm. now that i m wide awake (i think i can still sleep if i m on the bed), prolly will continue the korean series while waiting for 230am match. time to wash my eyes on british and american guys. ;)

same person in my dreams.

i have been having dreams which involve the same person for 2 consecutive nights. if you watch msia or sgpore shows, you will know our very own veteran actress, madam lai ming. i have been watching her in tv since my primary school days.

Anyway, whats up with me and her? Well, i dreamt bout her, she resembles my late grandma in a way. In the 1st dream, i had a nice chat with her in my house. Apparently she is my grandmother, and obviously i stay wit her under the same roof. I held her palm tightly when she wanted to stand up and i smiled broadly. I m not sure whether i smiled when i was sleeping. It may happen. Possible. In the 2nd dream, she was just a lady, giving out candies samples(exactly like roc candies i saw in perth) in supermarket or somewhere along the shops corridor. i was very joyful when i saw her wearing an apron and handling out the samples.

i woke up and smiled. i miss my grandma.

;(

why am i doing these?

logged into one of the cameras in cedarpoint. there was a marching band going on minutes ago. cedar is open again. i miss that place. hope someday i will be there on alumni nite.

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i was showering just now and said to myself

"i over-worked for my team!"

i made a list of tasks after getting out from shower, and yupz, i really over-worked for my team. i can see the delegation of tasks are bias!

i have so many options to go if i were to leave the team, but why am i still here?

hmmmmm. i have set timeframe thou.

;)

a fren proposed to open a biz. this biz requires no shop, no inventories, and if profit is made, i dunno how is the profit-sharing will be.

lemme reveal it
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become like-remisier-in-a-team. hahaha. we are hardcore gamblers come to think about it. firstly, we need rm100,000 as a deposit to pump in as a remisier. therefore employed now, self-employed later.

i really dun wanna stay in msia with the huru-hara in the politics arena. brunei will be good, but there isnt any such thing call BRUNEI STOCK EXCHANGE!

;)

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whats his name?

no idea why suddenly i think about perez.
the name perez.

i was thinking bout perez hilton moment ago.
then i recall recall and recall that i know a guy call something perez.
i tried to think whats his first name.
think. think think.
took me 5 mins.
i wanted to write here that
"sooheng, whats that guy's name".

ooh nvm. i could recall his name before i type the first letter in this post.
well,
hes a jerk. lol.
he really pisses me off each time we chat in msn.
i will end up block him. after weeks, i unblock him. then block him.
then deleted his name in fb. he added back. i deleted again.
the last conversation i had wit him was me commenting on his gf (forgotten from where). being too matured for him, and he got angry.
lol. i dont care neeway.

okok. i dunno why i was thinking bout perez.
damn out wei my brain.

its june in 1.5hours time. will be alone in office till friday. and i shall have a good time finishing my reports while attending lame clients' calls and doing the most unless thing on earth ie filling shit. how i wish i can wipe my shit wit those papers. i hate to file everyday. its not the filling that u punch holds into the stack of papers and just insert in the file. i gotta insert in respective clients' divider. see which page needs to be replaced wit the new printed ones. sounds fun or not?

a guy has sexy lips.

yes he has it.
i kept on looking at it.
and yes he has that lips that are suitable for females.
surely do.
he isnt gay, i m very sure.