last week i went to see my doc alone, and i nearly broke into tears when doc said my blood test results taken a mth back is as worse as 3 mths back. well, i managed to control my tears. then i had to take another blood test during that visit and for 3 days i was hoping that the result is better. when i called up for d result, it stated that i was overdosed, and doc gotta take away my drugs and i was instructed not to take it for a week. it made me suffered by having huge appetite (i havent been having huge appetite for 6 mths edi) and thus i am trying not to gain anymore weight, but it looks like the trying-to-process is failing. i tend to get very very extremely hungry during the night while burning midnite oil. and i tend to sleep alot too. am just hoping my 2 other future blood test results show some positive signs.
hmm. i think my
life pace is getting way out of control, its moving fast. exactly 2 mths time, i will be done with d last paper, and i will be pulling out my luggage from the cupboard's upper tier and start packing my stuffs (my life is like those americans going for roadtrip once they graduated, and having no idea when they will be back on track). think bout it, i have too many tops and i will b only bringing like less than 15. by the time am back, there will be yellowish spots on my clothes resulting from not wearing it for a quite some time. when i first started applying for my trip, i was very excited, but i got kinda freaked out the moment i purchased my air tic out from usa to elsewhere, i dunno know why.
dad told me not to use so much time to travel in usa, but instead, he prefers me to spend more time in europe. i told him i will be travelling for only 2 weeks in usa, and he doubt i could make it from florida to newyork in 2 weeks. i know all along that the duration is short. sigh.. i have no idea how is my travelling part gonna be. perhaps am just gonna rot in wilmington to see chad michael murray and sophie bush on onetreehill set. my dad is the person that likes europe, hes not into usa nor australia. i dont think that i will be going to europe although frens said it is a must to visit paris, czech, romeeeee. if i were to visit each countries in europe, i will never gonna celebrate my chinese new year next year la. haha.
my mom is kinda worried. last week she said "u r so small size, i dunno how are u gonna travel alone". i totally agree with her, but am trying to be optimistic (vi noticed that i am not as pessimistic as i used to be yrs back).
in months to come while am not here, my bro will b staying in the hostel.
my dad will be in and out from the country.
mom will be pratically be at home or at work.
i tend to get upset when ppl say that the house will be quiet.
never in my life i thought this atmosphere and situation will occur.
anything might happen.
who knows i will be able to find my true love in wherever during my trip.
hahaha. a couple of frens said to me b4 that "i think you will find someone, maybe some ABC fella". i think this is hilarious. ;)
alrite, back to studies.