what should i do?

if u ask a girl who hasnt taken an exam for nearly 2 yrs, she would answer

"its a hell! i tried to calm down a night before by putting face mask, and thought that i would sleep after disposing it, hell no, i couldnt. i went to bed at 215am. and no! i couldnt sleep neither. i kept on tossing, turning and scolded myself for not being able to sleep. am i anxious? or fear of failing the paper?its MCQ! yes i know its MCQ, but the last time i had MCQ was during pre-uni. i guess it should be easy. hope so, now lets sleep. i think its 3am now . what am i gonna do? sleep alrite, be a good girl. dum dee dum dee... i think its 4am now, and i gotta get up at 7am. ooh great, you better sleep. dum dee dum dee..... did i sleep? dum dee dum dee. its time to wake up. did i ever sleep? "

things turned out bad before i stepped into the examination waiting area.

1st - i roughly know the exam place, not a VERY clear picture of the direction.

2nd - i nearly met an accident, it was very very close.

3rd - drove passed the exam building and kept on driving along the road. and its heading to bangsar shit. and i know its wrong to U-turn at a hilly road.

4th - security man wanted to check the car boot, and how on earth to open it.

5th - where on earth to register myself. the building spaces is so huge and where are the other candidates besides seeing 5 employees there.

all these funny obstacles paid off. i rather go thru these and getting a 'failed'. i should do a good deed this week to pay it off.

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m tired. but i still gotta study some shits all over again. u know string of examinations kinda thingy.

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i went to HR today to get something, and it does freak you out if the HOD HR saw you and would like to chat with you. he drew out some frameworks and telling me that i can be my-own-boss. hes pulling me into a newly established division whereby all i need to do is do sales (ummm.. yea sales) by getting RM500,000 sales per month from a client. and i can shake my legs for the next 11 mths.

yes RM500k. per month. a client.

you can have training for 3 months only and after that, you dont need to enter office. you can work from home which i replied "i will be lazier by staying at home".

i told him "let me get a Dato' or Dato's son first". Maybe I will be in that division 5 yrs from now."

i really dunno how to get that amount of sales. its not easy shit.

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