IS COUGHING
C.O.N.T.R.O.L.L.A.B.L.E???

when i fucking cough, they scold me for coughing.
doesnt make sense.
for d past 2 days, i vomitted right after my dinner.
i had to run to the bathroom.
kneel down in front of d majestic bowl.
they dont know what am going through.
they dont.
they know that i vomitted.
but they never say a thing.
someone wanted to use the toilet,
but stood 8 feet away,
with a hand on the hip,
with d body language
"get out from the toilet, i wanna use!"
great. lovely.

had an arguement with her minutes agoooooooo,
and i think she wont lend me anymore money for my air tic,
am just fucking want to give up on the stupid summer programme.
too many problems i have gone through.
i just wanna fucking get out from here during summerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
but where to without money?

had some fucking bird shit landed on my head while i was sitting on a bench under d trees in d morning. peeps say this is d sign of bad luck. and, i think i believe in this right nooooooooooooowwwwwwww. my hair was smelly like a rotten shit. i washed quarter of my head in the toilet, had some perfume on, and the fucking smell is still there. thus i washed it for the second time in college and again added more perfume on my hair. when i rang a fren in d late evening, i was told its a sign of bad luck. i assume something bad will happen in d night, and it fucking did. what a bleak night on 18th march 2008!